HubBa BuBba Ouch!!

Barf - Barf!

2010-02-18T05:23:00.004+08:00

I've been meaning to brag *barfing, excuse me* i mean, blog about my trip to Bandung quite recently, but my hands are kindda full at the mo...besides its 5.30 in the freakin morning. I mean, who blog at 5.30 in the freakin hour of the morning??? tell meeeeeeeeeee........!!!

I'll post some pictures later...Still waiting for Jason to give me the copy of the whole vacation's photos..btw, besttttttttttttttttt siottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt....

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Feel it

2010-02-02T04:24:00.005+08:00

I just can't get this song out of my head now,..been listening to this song like over and over again,..Thanks to my ipod yo!! takde benda nk menunjuk, so ipod pun jadik ler...hehe...Anyway,I am so determine to share you this video from Three 6 Mafia feat Tiesto, Flo-Rida and Sean Kingston...Meletop babe! heheh...Normally, I'm not a big fan of hip hop thingy dudu didi, but I'll make an exception for this one...heheh..I even posted it in my Facebook...hehe...saje nk tunjuk semangat ke hip-hop-an...

Alamak!! Its 4.30 already,..better get some sleep...Today we are having this Safety lunch at Traders Hotel at 3 o'clock...you know Exxon, if its not safety, then its stingy...weehoo makan free, so takpe...hua3...biar gemok, jangan membazir..and Oh I am so counting days to this Friday! and below are my to-do-list:

To-do-list:
1. Apply cuti = Checked! dah approved da tadi
2. Pasport = Checked! da bwat da last week
3. Ticket Flight = Checked! da beli da last year
4. Pocket Money= Checked! da kumpul da since last year!

Hehe...Doesn't sound like a To-do list to me though...More like, Too-done list..heheh...Ok,.masa untuk cemburu dah tamat..I'll let you envy some more on my next post...I'll even upload you my picturesssssss ok, walaupun guna camera cikai bin cap ayam! takde la long exposure douche bag shit whatever chicken mcnugget like shots, tapi janji ada gamba la kan...I sound so obnoxious isn't it? hahaha...Ohh, I intend to!

Chow Scrabblebitches!

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Aris datang lagi!! dan Lagi..

2010-02-01T02:18:00.014+08:00

Halu2...Memandang kan aku takleh nk tdo sbb pkol 8.30 tadi da tertido kt dpn tv, so I decided to write something in here...So many things to update you with, unfortunately I have less time to do so...Nonetheless, I'll story ape2 je la yg aku ingat...Salah satu nya adalah kedatangan Aris hari sabtu yg lepas bersamaan dgn 23rd of January (Sbb ade picture, so I'll let the photo speaks for you keh)....Despite having to wake up so early in the morning to pick him up at the airport, tapi sebagai kawan yg baik (Baik la sangat!), takpe, small matter wlaupun aku balik mlm tu pkol 4 pagi (Cane tu, balik mlm tapi pagi??)...heheh...to some, my degree of kindness are ought to be taken for granted, but I'll always learn from my mistake(s),..but for close friends such as Aris, I don't mind(Wek2)...hehe...Anyway, his visit was rather short but our day was packed with activities...kuar dr tghari smpai 6 pagi k...gallivanting our way to Sunway Yo! and Pavillion Yo! (yuck!) and uptown Danau Kota..YO!!! Dya, I went there too babe!...hehe...best gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr wehhhhhhhh(and you can imagine how sarcastic that sounds..so bite you ear!)....

Ok,.now Im giving myself a Mo (as in moment..as in short form for Gimme a "Mo"...If you know what i mean..)..nk mengedit gamba jap...

............................1 hour later...............................

WAhhhhhhhh..It almost took me forever to resize all pictures...Al maklum la resolution besar bapak gajah kan,...di amek ngn camera slr yg pasti bukan milik aku...jom berangan lebih seperti pro amek gamba...

Di mulakan dengan menjamu selera di Wendy's. Courtesy of Aris sbb blanjerrrr...makseh pok!

Awww (as in ooohh, not auuuw)...Ali can be very camera shy at times...so don't mind him.

Aris..with his fries!

Makanan yg telah habis di mkn..takde mase nk tayang2.

Ok,..cam whoring ourselves in front of the mirror..whatelse.

And again

Despite amoi yg tak brape sngt nak amoi kt blkng tu, gamba tetap kene amek!

And the master of camwhore goes to me.

Tourist guide cum model.

Penampilan khas Reza Bersama Isteri Terchenta..

Reza Aris and Ali looking so orange. They look so fried isn't it?

Nikmatilah gamba2 background tuka2 kaler...

And Stop! ada 5 kaler semua nya! You can tell that its not the same pictures by just looking at the lady on the right yg interprem tak ingat dunia itu. damn her!

Ya itu dia, penghuni 210. we are forever young!

Not that young sbb ade yg da jadi laki org. still, some of us are still young though.

Very the....

Dan penampilan khas Afiq.

And there's me and the camera bitches.heheh.

Went to Gloria Jean's sbb ada member afiq wat showcase..band Indie.

Peachy!

The music was ok...I supposed so..hehe...

the band is called avanger ape kejadah ntah name dorg,..tak ingat,..just search kt myspace. konfirm jumpa.

Dah boring sbb there was another band like Bunk face wannabe singing! my ear was bleeding..

Cam whoring can be anywhere...its disturbing but fun at the same time.

ya, the heat sensation after pee just wanna make you take picture always...and oh, is it me, or Ali and I really look like we were taking a leak..mcm tgh kencing sambil Aris amek gamba...wow..creepy..

My attempt to ruin the photo..obscene isn't it?? I look like wonder pets doing ballet..

The next pit stop, Steven. Since murni was closed that night. ape mimpi ntah murni tutup ari sabtu.

Another special appearance from Reza and the wifey

Happy faces from Ali and I. We were trying to cover up from looking like tak cukup tido.

Ok, setelah penat bersiar2 di Uptown Danau Kote (pronounce in KL way please)...kami singgah untuk bershisha.

Pro- rific isn't it my attempt to snap this pic...it look so pro until I feel like i want to take wedding photos!!!

I'm just gonna let the boys have their sweet mo' (mo as in Moment k) together.

My ears look like an Elf...wow..what a bright eyes!

Forever 210! not Forever 21!!

And that's the end of a wonderful evening together with my friends.

So my evening ended at 6 in the moring (evening tapi morning..cane tu?)...overall it was great! Seems that this post was a bit novel than the usual, sbb ada bnyak gambo..hehe...takpe bukan slalu..enjoy2..hehe.. d[^_^]b

Oh did I mention that I just lost rm700 for replacing my freakin tyres today! damn!!!!!!!! and oh did I mention that I am going for a long haul of holiday over the sea next week? ok, you can start to envy me...hua3...

Update later...

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Brother

2010-01-17T05:01:00.007+08:00

I just got back from home at 430...and suddenly feel like writing. Point being? No reason...I got lost whilst I was looking my way home from Bukit Bintang after dropping off my brother. Stupid signboard! I accidentally took a highway to Putrajaya/KLIA from Jalan Tun Razak... To make matter worst, my car just ran out of fuel..I was about to think the worst, but thank god I took a U turn back to Jalan Cheras..and filled up my tank...and Oh, I bumped onto another horrible car accident along Federal Highway...and as a true Malaysian yg sangat lah concern dgn kebajikan org yg accident kt tepi jalan, aku pn sebok slow kan keta sambil menyumbang kepada jalan jem...Yeah, we Malaysian are famous for being courteous, tidak kira lah walaupun sekadar mengambik gamba accident ataupun sekadar benti keta atau sesaja melihat...hehe..and I am being sarcastic, because It always caused me for coming late to the office...hehe..

Anyway, my brother was here for some training...and yesterday I promised that I'll take him for a jalan2 with his friend skali,..we went to this bar along jalan ape ntah (either Chulan or Ceylon or is it the same road but pronounce in either BM or English??) and a had a nice time talking and watching some football match..and MU won yo! I even shouted at this dude to show my enthusiastic spirit (ajak ajak ayam je)...Well he shouted at us first, so I shouted back at him..hehe.. and we'd met Ella! and she is so hot. But too bad, very common among celebrity in Malaysia, she was with this Caucasian dude..If its not Dato', pilih la Anak Dato',..If it's not Anak Dato', pilih la Mat Salleh,..If its not Mat Salleh, pilih la Businessman,...If its not Businessman, pilih la Tengku ke,Tan Sri ke, Ahli Dewan Undangan Negeri ke...For you guys out there yg berangan nk ngedate celebrity di Malaysia, unless you are not one in the list, then you can kiss your dream good bye...

I never thought my brother had it in him, you know that sense of "we are brother yo, lets chill out together-gether" this whole time...I once found this quote over the Internet:

"A brother can't be a friend,..But a friend can be a Brother.."

So i guess my brother proofed me wrong for being such a good friend as well as a good brother...Somehow, in the deep realm of my genius brain, I always thought that whatever conversation i had with him, somehow our opinion always diverged...ya know, being a brother at home and that's just that...and that there never exist of any form of relationship once you step your feet outside the house,..and all these years, I prefer to keep myself mum onto telling stories about my life to him, or to the entire family members for that matter actually...I don't intend of telling every little details about my life to them, cause I feel that it's not necessary for them to know...that is how secretive I can be,..heheh.. :p

Anyway, I've promised my brother that the next time he comes again, I'll try to spend more time with him...hehe..sedih siot...sob3...and Its official, that this year new year's resolution is trying to get it closer with my family, walaupun jaoh,...and try to be open every once in awhile..so bile ntah nk balik Kuching? hek3.. so much for my new year's resolution...

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Aging...

2010-01-11T02:32:00.003+08:00

Wow,..tiup habuk,..puhhh puhhhhhhhhhhhhh........hehe...Yeah! some update!! I reckoned dya would be so thrilled once she found out that I just pay a visit to my blog...She can be very persuasive with people, and I gotta admit that maybe she might be just about right, I should fill in the blank pages at where I left off, continue writing (Not that m good at it)...huhu..Its just that nothing much really happened and I refuse to recycle back same ol same ol story over and over again,..I might as well make you puke your lunch...

Anyway, its been like 9 months of working..9 months yo! and you could have yourself a baby!!....I gotta say, I kindda enjoy being an adult (Adult la sangatttt)...dgn erti kata lain, I enjoy spending my ujong bulan gaji...hua3..I'm a spendthrift, yeah screw me....ya know, doing the "Bread and Butter" thingy, wait no,or is it supposed to be with a Wine?? but you get what I mean..hehe...this coming March, marks my one year anniversary working with my current company...hehe..at least I have something to be proud of...and Wow, time really flies like "oh snap!" and then you're back on 1st of January...right back at where you standing at last year...and suddenly, things just feel like dejavoo all over again except the fact that you started to grow wrinkle on your forehead... :p

However, I guess something do changed,...even a tad of change is considered as change right..Emm, and a change for some unknown reason maybe...good bad whatever~...One thing I noticed that I manged to alienate the rest of my closed friends (is it with "-ed" or without "-ed" hell screw the hell of you)....Kudos and standing ovation for me!! hihi..but that's just it,..I realized that my brain cells started to grew a "tired of pleasing people" neurons in it,..It actually lurks behind my brain this whole time,...and therefore I started to ignored everything...and the mild effect is that, I sing along with it! I even had a song written for my changes of behavior... and you don't wanna know the title of the theme song...You'll hang me out to dry...

I'm at a difference stage of life where I've met new faces and experiencing a new scenario in life...I have a rent to pay, and a purple car to fix,.....I fix my own problem for the love of god, things which I only saw my dad and my mum used to do for a living,..I'm not the same guy 2 years or 4 years ago mate,..ya know, the one that used to sit back and enjoy the rest of the day doing nothing but just gazing out of thin air, without thinking any consequences in life...the old me the person who always say YES, JOM, OK, BOLEH SAJA...instead of NO, without even considering how much it troubles me.....It was indeed a stupid and waste of time investment that doesn't seems to make a considerable effect none whatsoever......

My point is now, except the new me,...I may sound so self-conceited to you or I may sound like "you're not being yourself lately".......but I am being myself and If you could not accept me, then I'm sorry...

Case in Point.

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Point exactly?

2009-08-31T01:59:00.004+08:00

Its 2 p.m and I'm feeling so jaded...today is more damp then the day before...Seriously..i spent my after berbukak puasa strolling down to OU and the Curve alone in search for some "thing", which i don't know what "thing" is that "thing"...i thought it was the last day of mega sale and i need to buy something before the sale is over, so macam rugi la kalau tak spent something, silly isn't it? So i ended up looking like a lost puppy...and by now i would presume you would considered me as lonely-bitter-melancholic-super-massive-pathetic guy with no best interest at heart ain't it?..i get it...so sue me...i was bored, so i read people blogs...captivating but i was filled with jealousy,...wonder if anyone ever get jealous of me? hehe,...well i'm not born with a silver spoon fed down to my throat,..so there's no excuse for anyone to get jealous..hehe...i never been such a reader, you know, read books and stuffs,...i normally read when i feel like reading,...books are only for claver people,..and apparently i forgot to signed up with single breakfast book club,...so you can spare your sorrow of worrying that i'd forgotten to return back your dearly beloved book...Oh syit, i did that,..with my colleagues,..she lend me her confession of a shopaholic book, hoping that one day we could sit together in a coffee shop discussing how lame the characters in the book was,..but i just wrenched her dreams by making every piece of the book pages as my alas untuk nasik hakim for the whole year (tipu je)..

point if the story? there is no point of blogging really...its just my freedom of speech...

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Don't you remember you told me you loved me...

2009-08-05T02:13:00.005+08:00

Haluu,..you know how i adored old school songs,..hehe,..i've been searching for this song entitled "Superstar" originally sang by The Carpanters and once again made as a cover version by the late Luther Vandross.I've been looking for it for quite sometimes already and i wasn't so sure about the title of the song and so i tried typing all the possible title for this songs in the internet, including absurd word that i can come up with and i got quite a huge amount of absurd result as well..hehe.. It was one of my parents favorite's song actually.huhu,..So here i am sharing with you guys the new version from Usher in tribute to Luther Vandross. So enjoy...

Time for me to tuck myself in bed now. Oh by the way, anyone up for a G.I Joe this week??hehe...

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I just missed you...

2009-08-04T01:45:00.003+08:00

Haluuu,..Its been awhile and i kindda missed venting and lashing out a piece of my mind in this blog,..This blog has no longer become my sanity outlet for the past couple of months, but last night i sort of left out with nothing else to do and so i just gazed on all the previous entries that i wrote and somehow one entry leads on to another entry until suddenly i realized how much i misses writing,..My previous entry wasn't all that novel and fancy with pictures with a shot from a D-type camera whatsoever (its an understatement of self jealousy for not having one,hehe), but at least i still have a few readers that still pay attentions to my blog (ade ke??),..kehkehkeh,..

Regardless,

Nothing engaging any of my attention so far, so no story for you my dear,..hehe...But, last weekend i got to spent some time with my cousin, though it was short, but it was nice to catch things up with stories and sharing the piece and parcel of lives with her. But all that was when i have to walk all alone by myself in the mall searching and looking for a nice pair of pants whilst she was sitting and chit chatting with her online buddy at starbuck.hehe..now how comfortable was that?? Anyhoo, Sunday was when i got to spent time with one of my housemate,...for the time being, i am living with three others in this not so bachelor pad houses,..anyway, we went to the PIKOM pcfair and the bargain was as the same as the previous pcfair, i reckoned...I just bought myself a new earphone for my mp3 but after using it in the office today i ended up thinking "Why again did i bought this none-quality-shit-ass piece of earphone again??"...hmmm,..the road was really congested that day, and we were passing by this parking area and they were charging RM15 per-entry for cry sake!! gila apa...we were complaining on who would be so silly to pay rm15 just to park a car,..So my housemate and i went to Pavillion la to look for a short pants and i tell you it was a tiring in search for just a piece of short pants,..But the mega sale was very tempting, that i swear I almost went blind of looking at all the barang2...huhu,..if only money is not an issue...anyway, after almost 4 hour of walking endlessly, we went to pay for the parking fee and boy it just knocked us both silly when the machine display Rm15 ringgit,..For the love of britney spear, 15 ringgit!!!!!!!!! Oh look who's talking???? Kesimpulan, both of us was that silly person who'd paid Rm15 just to park one single shit piece of car. (you can count how much i uses the word "piece" in the entry,..hehe..ayat dya, sorry babe..kikiki..)

Anyway, my weekend ended up me buying a nice piece of pants,..hehe,..was it worth it? No i don't think so,..i could be if the parking wasn't so expensive and i advise you guys, don't park your car anywhere near pavillion,Mahal siot!..i should stop now, i need to wake up early as i have a karock session to attend with my colleagues,..hehe...gud nyte people..

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Dad i Love You! You're the best Dad in the world!!

2009-06-22T01:21:00.010+08:00

Something just startled me for a millisecond there mate',...I just knew that my father have an account on facebook...Hahaha,..When did my old man signed up for this?? For all i know, he might as well get himself a blog,.......Ini tak boleh jadi!! If he knew that i also have an account with facebook, I'll bet that he would add me!! looking how profound my used of language in facebook (with all the nasty used of words,..no need to mentioned what nasty words here..you get the idea), he proly would sly me opened in half thinking sungguh petah sekali anak ku berbicara bersama2 kwn nya,....Since when did my dad become so modern? I thought old people supposed to be old? you know, read books, newspaper or anything that has to do with paper...Like the one that you saw on Tv where the old man wearing glasses, berbaju pagoda, sitting on a couch, sipping a nice lighted piece of ciggar,..hehehe,..Well apparently my dad is not like any ordinary dad after all and he is a living proof that facebook has no age limits,..hehe,...Syabas pak!!

Anyway, true story about my dad, last week(which is 14th of May),he was complaining to my mum why all his children didn't wish him a father's day,...He said " mun mother's day, cepat jak sidak wish,..bila father's day, sorg pun sik wish,..." Translation: "Kalau mother's day, cepat je dorg wish,..Bile Father's day, sorg pun tak wish,..

And so, my mum took the initiative by being so thoughtful enuff sending a text msg just to remind all of her children to wish our father a father's day wishes so that my father would stop sulking in front of her,...hahaha,..adorable isn't it my parents?? i know...So every each child in the Salleh's family started to send sms/call wishing our father a happy father's day,...which include my little sister whom was sitting like 3 meter away from my father, also received the reminder msg,..hahaha,...

But amazingly, father's day actually falls on 21st of May right? the climax of this story, all of us wished our father seminggu lebih awal drpd semua anak2 di Malaysia,...hehe,...But who cares, If you love your Father, It doesn't actually need one significant day to express your love and appreciation ain't it? anyway, my msg sounded something like this:

"Pak, Happy Father's day,..You're the best father in the world,.."

And my father replied:

" Thanks son, and u the best son in the world! "

Reading that short sentences really made my day,..

Bak kata pepatah (cewah..hehe), Kasih Ibu Membawa ke Syurga, Kasih Ayah Membawa Bahagia,..Handsome siot bapak aku, no wonder la aku pun Handsome jugak,It runs in the family!..hihi... :p kidding...

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Signed Sincerely, Me

2009-06-21T20:11:00.001+08:00

I know I haven’t updated my blog since the medieval year, considering how busy I am nowadays. So I prefer to keep myself mum for a while…Plus, the connection seems to be off the radar during the night hour which is the time where I usually came home from work,..So why bother about the blog right? I don’t know where to begin with or where to start,..So many things happened for the past couple of months,..just ups and down, the usual one… I’m so eager to type everything down, but not exactly in that right mood to keep my fingers all that occupied,… Maybe next time…What I can say is that I had an awful time during my convocation, a sweet 24th birthday yet totally turned off when you had to celebrate it in the office (Anyhoo, Thanks Yana for wishing my bday on your blog and making it as a title,..haha,..classy ain’t it my bday), and some other events which I can’t remember somehow,..
At this point of time, I just feel so lost and abandoned,..I even tried to call and talk to my parents, even they were no where to be reached,…so I just gaze upon all the list of number of people in my contact list inside my handphone, thinking how I just picked someone’s number in random, dialed and had a nice decent conversation just to divert the feeling of self-guilt, lonely, abandon and missing yet another piece of my life….but I don’t know who to pick and choose…and so I just continue feeling sorry for myself, wanting to scream on top of my lung and be gone to some places where I can just let go of everything that I have,…I used to think that I am a person whom which anyone can count on, but truth is, I might as well be as good as nothing,….How I hurt everyone’s feeling without knowing how they feel towards me,..how I treat people that I thought I was trying to be all that goody two shoe, turn out to be just a dirty sock that you can just throw away in the laundry, I was being a complete ass, a jerk, or whatever you want to called it…How I thought my helping hand was as useful as a twig which you usually used to reach an apple on a tree, turned out to be a just huge slap onto someone’s face….It hurt to know that you are mistakenly accused as you’r-such -an-ass when all along you thought you were just trying to be a friend. And somehow I try to gauged everything in and come up with a conclusion that it should stop……For me to return back to everything to it was, is impossible, and I’m sorry..I wish I can step back and reverse everything back, but I can’t,…So I’m just hoping people would accept the way I am and accept all the amends that I made ,…But for the most part, don’t count on me the next time you need help,…I might as well be a bitch,…

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Jahat Bin Devil...haha..boring da...

2009-05-02T03:14:00.005+08:00

The Queen, or shall i say, The King of the damned has finally raised from the ashes,....Once a sinner, always be a sinner,...dah alang2 buat jahat, baik buat jahat selalu,....hehehe........But if you asked me, i rather be the devil in disguise,...hehe,....Mula2 buat baik, pastu simpan, pastu baru buat jahat kaw2..ape mcm? Ok x? hehe...That's me,..

I'm just talking random, no point exactly..... i like to spaz around like i usually does,..im good at it..feel free if you wanna cast me to your million dollar trash can.....hehe...

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Susan kate nyee.....

2009-05-02T01:15:00.006+08:00

Yo! I'm back in the business..for now...haha...Now, i came across with this video in youtube and was touched by Susan Boyle...Apparently the video was embedded, therefore i can't paste the embed script here, so i just gave you the link instead,..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

People surly get a wake up called right after she opened her mouth ain't it...hehe...Now that is what i called "DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT's COVER!!!!!!!"...I would really love to say "HAHA..IN YOUR' FUCKING FACE YOU MORON!!" right up to the audience's face especially one who rolled their eyes and even laughed when she said she wanted to be a professional singer,..what is so wrong about wanting to be a professional singer forcrysake??...One can dream can they? sheessshhh,...Just because she's not all that pretty, suddenly she apt to be an ugly sitting duck ready to become people's laughing stalk??? Now who's talking? She even got her name marked in wikipedia! You? exactly right?

Speaking of, I despise when people misconstrue about something,...goodness...Don't take people as a piece of meat that you can simply spite and malice whenever you feel free like you want it to,...Take a simple example for instance,..just because I'm not in favor with football, doesn't mean i don't know how to play it do i? So what if Man.U suck egg, its not the end of the summer isn't it? You still got to see the sun tomorrow after right? I maybe suck, well not bad actually, but doesn't mean i can't kick your rat ass in the field.....And they were these bunch of moron lose headed piece of junk started to drive me up the wall by making an exquisite picture of me hating football so bad that i chewed the ball and even buried it to the deepest ground where anyone couldn't find it,...In a more complex example, take Micheal Jackson and Bill Gates. Just because Micheal always hang out with Bill, suddenly people started to see them as gay? I mean seriously, how narrow can your mind be? The more we are exposed to revolting terms and definition to meaning and whatnot, the shallow our minds become...Fuckness, who'r we to label? Do we forgoodness know someone by just a glimpse of a flash milisecond light? Sure everyone make their own judgment, but who are we to judge? I mean, this applied to everyone,....why can't people just came straight to someone's face and bluntly say : " Hey You, I hate You so much that i swear I'd run naked to see you fall from the sun with your face fall flat!"...Now that is very repulsive but yet very effective isn't it? Like today,I met a long lost not so very eager to bumped with kindda of friend of mine, and he said he was talking about me last night,...That was very lucid and transparent and makes judging process a lot easier isn't it,...he hates me, i hate him,..so basically we love to have a good time slapping each other cheeks a gazzillion times,...

I'm speaking on behalf of those who always been abused with this "takde keje" punya olang la,...same goes with me actually, i judged,..but i repent,...

But back to basic, we are after all human,......

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Mari memasak,..hahaha...

2009-04-19T15:05:00.010+08:00

I don't know what the heaven with me these days,...tiba2 rase mcm rajin memasak,..hehehe...i get the idea of wanting to cut some expenses especially on food, as i rest assure you makanan kt KLCC mahal gila babeng,...So i decided to bwk makanan from home instead,...Genius isn't it?? well it runs in the family,.....tapi, somehow i got so addicted with cooking, and so i cooked more and more,..hehe,...cewah, padehal 4 kali je masak so far,....hahahahahaha,...terserlah jugak la bakat memasak aku,hahaha..macam Jamie Oliver...but anyway, my specialties: pasta and spirals!!

How to make Spiral goreng yg sedap (trust me, memang sedap,..ngahahahaha u don't called it specialties if it wasn't good isn't it?? hehe):

Bahan-Bahan:
1. Spiral sebungkus (ikut korg la nk bwat brape bnyk,..ikut suke,..klau rase lapar, bwat la lebih)
2. Tomato puree or boleh gak guna sardin (kalau sep, guna sadin je la)
3. Nk sedap sikit, beli la hotdog.hehe...
4. Cili sos
5. Bawang putih Bawang merah ikut beberape ulas korg nk
6. Bawang besar (ade ke bawang besar??? ade kan?), ikut korg,..hahaha...sbb resepi ni mmng ikut suke, sbb tu kot sedap,..hahaha...
7. Minyak
8. Garam

Care2 membuat spiral goreng yg sedap tak terhingga neh:

1. Rebus spiral dlm air mendidih...air mendidih tu sebelom tu kne bubuh sedikit garam and a little bit of olive oil(mbak kate Jamie Oliver), cewah, padehal olive oil takder dlm bahan2 tadi!! hahaha...takder olive oil, minyak yg slalu korg guna untuk goreng2 tu sudeyy,..nak elak spiral tu melekat jer..rebus dlm 20 minit camtu, agak2 da lembut lembik tu korg tos kan la,...pas tos tu, bubuh sikit minyak, so spiral korg lemak berkrim lagi,..hahaha...

2. Nk buat gravy ni lagi la senang, Saute' (pergh,..ayat nk canggeh,..haha) semua jenis bawang yg korg ade tadi, pastu masok kn tomato puree or sardin (kalau yg sep tu, sadin je la hahaha),..kalau guna sadin, make sure sadin tu di hancur2 kan la,kalau guna tomato puree, masok kan hotdog...pastu masok sikit sos cili,....a little bit of sugar,..kasik pedas manis sikit,..garam sikit, ajino moto sikit,...stir stir until you lose feeling of your hand,...

3. masok kan kan spiral dlm gravy yg korg bwat tadi,...ape lagi,again with the stir stir stir fry fry fry,..stir stir fry fry,..until you wrist started to turn blue,....and then voila'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Selamat mencuba!!! one day, you'd turn pro like me...memang bertuah la sape yg kawen ngn aku nanti,..hehehe...tiap hari aku masak spiral goreng nie,...

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Lets spaz around...

2009-04-12T03:13:00.009+08:00

I was looking at my ex-classmate's pictures on Facebook and suddenly i feel so old,...hahaha,...Our classmates have grown so big, while other just grew smaller i might add and some doesn't seems to grew at all,..hehe,...There was this one time, a friend of a friend thought i was like 26 or something and i was like "Rightttttt???????"....he was one year older than me, and he thought i was 26?! Maybe I've grown maturely(barfing continuously) after going tru some experiences on my own,...or maybe people just grew old,...Does it obviously shows physically? i mean, my birthday is like a month away (*hint hint*hehe) and my age wrinkles are suddenly visible to someone's eyes,..really? does it work that way? OF course it does you silly little rat,..that is what people called aging for some reason kan? hahahaha,......I'm making some sense here aren't i??

Time definitely plays a significant part of our lives, and as i deliberately reminisce back all the passing year, I wonder how far have i become,..huhu,..i finally found my safer ground to stand on,...i have a job now, which i do kindda enjoy doing,....but my responsibility grew along,...i have so many things to think,..So bile fikir2 balik, dulu budak2 je,..skrg da besar,..hahaha,..dulu time2 skolah ntah pa2, skrg im driving to work, nk kne pk pasal ape nk bwat masa keje,...Dulu senang je mintak sepuloh ringgit ngn mak bapak, skrg da carik makan untuk diri sendiri,...Apa kah maksud itu semua?? hehe,...

Have you ever asked youself about "WHAT IF I,....??" questions? i do all the time,....hahaha,..your action define what you are today, but what if i am not what i am today?? what if i made a different decisions back then? Would i be the same person as i am now or would i be a complete different person from head to toe,in and out?? hurmmmmmm,....It's a matter of life re-definition but you are not exactly entitled to reverse everything back....hehe...So, here are some things for you to ponder about and ask yourself,...and to which extent exactly my point is going to....NONE,..saje,..hahaha,...

I'm just spazing around during this breaka' dawn,..don't mind me,..hehe,..carry on with your chores,...hihi,..

challo!!!

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jangan tegur sisa pepejal,..hahaha,...

2009-04-12T01:43:00.006+08:00

I just got back from OU, watching Jangan Tegur with my housemates,...most scary movies would scare the hell out of me, but this one definitely top it all!! kudos!! haha,..Good scary element, plus a little touch with some local urban legend, just made the movie memang best,..in my opinion la,...tak tau la org lain,..hehe,...

Weekend seems to be the only time i can catch up with my housemates,...the recent event, which happened last night by the way, membuat kan ktorg bergotong-royong hari ini,...I don't know which stupid fella yg bijak sngt, who seems to misplaced his brain somewhere in the fridge maybe,dengan stupidly enough to leave behind his "waste-if-you-know-what-i-mean-like-sisa-pepejal-kindda-waste-a huh!" scatter around the toilet area,...Nak ckp ktorg ni budak2 sekolah, tak jugak,...semua dah berbulu lebat-if you know what i mean la kan,..but then again, is it not big enough the toilet bowl untuk diguna pakai??? Babi haram kejadah grossss you know!!! After i wash away all the "evidance-If-you-know-what-im-talking-about", baru la semua nk bukak cite psl isu toilet tuuuuu,......and ironically, everyone has their own alibi which includes me as well,...hehehe,...and in everyone own defense, terselit ayat "BUKAN AKU,..." hahaha,...We did sort of narrow who would be the primary suspect, but the case is now closed,...

Anyhoo, nice weekend spent,..nice movie,..nice dinner,...but the part about the toilet, not exactly that nice,.....

gnyte mate!!

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Awesome viewing,..hehehe...

2009-04-11T05:23:00.004+08:00

Hola there!! I know i have been away for quite awhile now,...busy juggling with work,...you know?..WORK,..hahahaha.......for the love of heaven, my blog is still not properly structure after my last revamped,..hurmmm,....Nanti la letak ape2 yg patut,...online pun dh jarang,...nk bwat mcmmanerrrr....Same ol routine,..nothing much to cerita actually,...But i must say,Petronas Twin Tower never fails to captivate my view for the past i don't know, everyday maybe,...its stupid i know,...but every time i looked up in the sky, i saw how mesmerizing the tower was,..instead, what i did was, i used my phone and snapped all the godforsaken pictures of the twin tower,...so now, my phone gallery is filled with twin tower's pictures,..silly isn't it???? hehehe,...and why again i'm telling u this???? hahaha,...

anyway, got to go!! Jaiho bette'!! hehe,...

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Update sikit...hehe...

2009-03-20T04:00:00.002+08:00

Suddenly i feel so obsolete and i feel i have been missing so many things during the day light...I don't even know what is going on with the world today for cry sake!! Tomok masih rambut pelik ke tak dlm One in a Million??, Qistina masih idup ke tak?? did marl suddenly loose some weight?? cewah, important la sngt...hahaha.Less light tend to make me unaware with my surrounding,...Hmmmm,...Unless for the part where i need to wake up at 12 and be at the office around 3,..and that is by far the longest exposure to sunlight i ever get in a day tengkiu very much sir... Work so far so good,.. i think i have been really blessed, having good companion along side,meeting new people....At the new company, everyone is sooooo nice and warm,...and i think i can get used with having the "Nice" colleagues around...hehe....and thank god enuff, ade sorg mamat masok skali ngn aku,...ade jugak la geng blur first day masok keje,....hehe....And since then we been sticking like a glue,...hahaha,...But the off road is that my expenses macam harammmmm,...(cewah ayat KL shial..hahaha...). Gosh, my money is flowing like a tap water,...Its so hard to keep myself afloat if i continue living like this,...huhu,...haven't found any solution yet,...But one way is by making my friend's life like a living hell by asking them to fetch me from work,just so i can avoid from paying for car park fees.....hehehe,...bijak tak? kikiki......

Ok, i think i need to sleep now,.....

update later,....

chow bi-Otch!!

hehe...

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Life in technicolor,.....

2009-03-05T16:00:00.001+08:00

My resignation last Thursday is no longer a secret mate',..since the cat is finally out of the bag, I'm just embracing every moment with joy. Most of my friends knew already, so I am not ashamed to admit how dreadful it was working under the company...I reckon those at the office didn't take our resignation with an open hand,...I just couldn't care less,...we did sort of received a phone call from HR a few hours later, but i purposely refuse to pick up the phone,...hehehe....cuak dowhhh,..hahaha....but at the same time i don't feel like i need to owe anyone an explanation do i??,...hehehe,...but since my partner in crime did picked up the phone unintentionally since the caller smart enough to use her own hand phone number instead sbb mmber aku tetiba jadi sengal sebab die ingat kot2 member die kol,...hampeh tol mamat tu,...so she put him in no positon but to explain why we left so suddenly,...yo ler bai, dpt gaji terus blah,mane tak panas je minah tu kann..hahaha,...but the HR person was kind enough to inform us that this is not the first time people left, it happened quit a number of times,...My friend was thoughtful enough to offer a few tips to avoid such incident to happen again,such as increasing the employee's salary....hahahaha...i know,...baik hati tak ktorg,..dah blah siap bagi nasihat lagi kat org2 HR tu,...hahaha,....at liz ade jugak sumbangan ktorg ngn mmber2 ktorg yg keje kat situ,...hehe....

So now, most of my days are filled with staying at home and going back to square one, where job hunting suddenly become so custom again. But on the bright side, i got to wake up so late and sleep like i just don't care,...hehehe....

Until next week, im back with waking up early routine (syittt...), but as long as the money keep on coming every month, i don't mind do i,.....hehehe,...dah lamak aku sik shopping,..heheheh,...

But here's a thing,.....Magically(yeah i mean it when i said magic!!!),during my time at the company, i received quit a number of phone calls from IT companies, in which i apply tru jobstreet or jenjobs,...i couldn't pick up the phone at that time as hand phone usage is strictly prohibited at the office...But now, i have all the godforsaken time in the world to pick up any bloody phone calls from anybody, but i received nothing at all!! none!! nil!!!!!!! where is the fairness in this world????????????

Oh by the way, i just happened to received one call a few minutes ago,...it was from a company who happened to noticed how fancy my tie is....ironic isn't it,...minggu depan da nk start keja, baru dorg nk call suh dtg interview,......hampehhhhh...

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i quit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-24T23:17:00.007+08:00

I just hope my departure at the department go as plan,...i know so becoz i can't stand it anymore,..not a single minutes....hahaha,.....4 weeks and i feel like hell,....like the hell i care if its a multimillion dollar company shit ass,....as long as im no near with the office, it's fine by me mate'...in fact, i'll be rejoicing my resignation as sign of blissful tragedy yg tak terhingga best gila babeng i wanna scream on top of my lungs and says "I QUIT MUATHAF*ckRRRRRR!!!!!!!",....weeee.......i know it's a recession hour where jobless graduates are everywhere to be seen, but i won't make it an excuse to stay long at the company as i don't exactly see any future whatsoever with em'...so the best outcome that i can think so far is to release myself from every shit thing related to em'...it is by far the most wise decision i ever made,...so im raising the flag and just walk away ....but i definitely going to miss my buddies thats for sure!!,...damn!!!...ok, over sharing stories needs to end now,...

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Am i living in denial??

2009-02-21T21:52:00.007+08:00

After i found out the shocking news about my health condition (which did terrify me a lil bit last night coz i seriously felt dizzy before going to sleep) and of coz getting my mc at the counter, Albin and i decided to take our time off before my next interview at 3...during lunch, after having deep thoughts and wise advice from my buddies, i decided to declined my 3 pm interview and to try my luck for my 4 pm interview instead,...but i did called the person in charge for 3pm's interview and informed him that i need to reschedule the interview to different time and day,..i mean, at liz i have a decency to inform right? not just leaving them, waiting uninformed becoz i understand that some company would leave bad comments on jobstreet or something. He notified by asking me to come by this Monday,.....Hah sudahhhh,.....mcm mane aku nk pegi interview ari isnin ni kalau aku keje?????? I just said " Ya sure, i see you this Monday,..". I don't know what was my moronic brain was thinking when i said yes...Maybe for some reason i am convinced that i can solve any predicament as i usually does,...i mean, who knows....i just keep my fingers crossed.....

We rushed to KL a bit early with hope that we can avoid any jam, but all that ended up me coming to the interview half an hour late,...now that surely going to leave me some bad remarks on my appraisal ain't it....but the lady in charge for the interview was so nice that she said it was ok and left me at the chair to filled in some form,...and i was like "phewwww....". She then asked me to sit for a technical test,...but seriously, i would like to stressed to you guys how important English hari ni la,...sngt2 penting,...there's always time and space for you to improve,its a matter of nak or tak nak jer..to some, proly by reading pun dah cukup, as for me, Thanks to the invention of mankind most precious technology: TV and Radio, it surely improved my oral in English.....hahaha,...,..the technical test was a bit tricky but i managed to pass with flying bullet passing tru my head,...She then informed me that i need to take another test this Monday as she was too tired to continue,.....i like i usually does, once again bluntly said "Ok, sure..." without ever considering anything. After my 5 second gold fish brain started to function back to normal, suddenly i was like "Nahhhhhhh, hancur berkecai harapan aku, die suh dtg ari isnin pulekkkk,.....". Sometimes i feel like i am living in denial by thinking that for some oblivious reason that i can managed to escape or take just 5 minutes to do other things outside the job that already being bounded to me now,...get what i mean? hurmmmmm,..takper la...my shit head is always gushing with nonsense thoughts, which sometimes cause me nothing then trouble,..

So now, i am in total messed....what's my next call? i don't know.....

p/s: post kali ini mcm tergantung jerrr.....hahaha......

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Aiyakkk,...i just got knocked silly!!!!

2009-02-18T22:25:00.005+08:00

Since somebody insisted me to update my blog a few days ago,..so i tot: "Owkayy, why not..."
I don't have anything to update really,..i feel like a shit cow....Regardless of my passive indolence behavior which i constantly getting used after stepping foot in the career world, i just found another familiar faces at work place,...It's my friend's boyfriend,..damn it,...the world is turning into the size of peanut....everywhere you go, you just go:" damn it! i know him!" Ok i shud stop with my renting,....

emmm,...I have three interviews today,....I just hope i will get off the hooked by either one of the interviews,...Its going to be my ticket to freedom from my current position...hehe,...woke up early this morning since i need to take a public transport to KL central but due to congested traffic flow yg mcm sial nk pegi kl, the travel took almost 2 blardy hour,...If its not one thing, then it must be another right?,....tension betol,..kne inform office pulak sbb nk amek mc konon2 cirit birit la,...wat suara serak2 basah sikit then voila'!! settle satu masalah,..skrg masalah nk carik bgnan la pulak,..dah la lmbt,..dgn mata merah and tekak kering akibat nk wat suara serak2 basah tadi, my voice turned so husky that i sounded like Aritha Franklin...the interview went quite well despite my late coming and the display of my stunning red eyes, which im sure the interviewers going to think that i took some drugs or something before coming for the interview due to emotional breakdown syndrome...On my way back to shah Alam, a friend of mine informed me that his company did made a few phone calls using private number which i did received but did not catch the call due to my mp3...bagus kan, time tak busy tak pulak dorg call,..hampeh tol...after waiting for awhile, the company did return back the call and informed me that i need to attend an interview at 4,..damn it!! i agreed upon hanging up and my shit cow brain just realized that i have another interview at 3...So can i make it just in time to attend both interviews?? unless there is such things like human cloning, you let me know ok,...After I was picked up at stesen komuter by Albin, we went to settle a few errands and i told him that i need to get my mc at any clinic...we were brainstorming our brains out to come up with strong reasons to get us mc,...first attempt by bluntly said "Kak, saye nk beli mc,..bleh??"...sah2 akak tu ckp "tak boleh! kne sakit baru boleh dik",...but lurking behind my cow brain nk je ckp: "Saye sakit jiwa ni kak"...So i decided to be honest on the 2nd attempt, jujur tapi berlakon la,...i told the nurse that i was having a terrible dyrea this morning,...pastu masok bilik dr,...Dr ni tanye2 la naper ngn aku, aku jwp la ngn jwp seposen yg aku sakit perut cirit birit pagi tadi,...she just gave that cynical smiles and somehow i get the idea that dlm hati die ckp "cirit birit la sngt,...kne betol2 padan muke ko!!"...As for the part about checking the compulsory procedure, she checked for my blood pressure and her next sentence just knock me silly when she told me that my blood pressure was above the normal pressure,....NAH,AMBEKKKKK KOoooooooooooooo....nk sangat pegi klinik...

I shall continue on my next post as my blood pressure is starting to take effect now,..feeling a bit drowsy,..i think i need some sleep,....

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I think i need a booze of energy,....

2009-02-12T23:09:00.008+08:00

Haiyooo,..weekdays just made me feel all tired and weary la,...I don't really fancy my new job, but im getting myself attached with my new friends instead, albeit how loathing it was to even stay a single minutes in that office,....In short, everybody is planning an escape plan,...which makes us more closer with each other since our main concern now is basically on the same page,..hurmmm,....i bet we are the worst batch that the company ever hired,..hehe,...

regardless,...it wouldn't be too long until i finally execute my prison break,..speaking like a perfessional loser,....hahaha,..

ok ramai2 crossed finger...trima kasih,...

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i love public holiday!!!

2009-02-09T01:12:00.007+08:00

Since tomorrow is public holiday, i might as well prolong my "i-shud-be-sleeping-by-now-for-cry-sake" hour, since weekdays is a no-no sleeping late mate,...well atliz for me that is,..So im cutting myself some slack with these wee hour thingy do,..huhu,..last night went out for a chill at ss15, with some close friends and one of these close friends never failed to crack the hell out of me,...hahaha,...But moving on,..

As i mentioned before on the subject of "dunia ini semakin kecik",...well what do you know,....dunia ini memang manjadi semakin kecik,..hahaha,...

Story 1
One of the new employed staff(including me) at the place where i work now, is a friend of my friend!!! They happened to be kawan sekampong in Perlis.

Story 2
For quite sometimes, i followed one or two blogs under anonymous writer,just randomly read it..And one of them is this lady from miri,...I don't know who the person behind the blog, but her masterpiece was very captivating and hilarious,..plus her used of words are nicely arranged,..So as i was reading her blog this evening, my housemate came from behind and asked whos' blog i'm reading,..i said it was written by this lady by the name of Balqis,..he was like, "Balqis?Miri?",...and what are the odd that he know this lucky lady, which happened to be his old classmate,...damn,..scary but its the truth,..hahaha,..boleh masok misteri nusantara,..haha,...

By the way, Zimah KUUUUUUUUUUUUcccccccccciiiiiiinggggggggg has finally recovered from denggi,..and her significant others is coming to town this morning,...so i'm fetching him at 6,.....same goes with my Wani, finally getting better,...hurmmmm,Good Good....akher nya semua sehat,...

Long story short, i better tucked myself in bed now,...or else the tooth fairy is going to pull my heads off if i stay late after 2,..hehe,..gnyte people!! Happy Hols!!

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i love saturday!!

2009-02-08T02:14:00.004+08:00

i am so sorry,..i've been occupying myself with my new job,...so everyday i'm all flat,hance my time to update my blog are getting limited..now i'm starting to understand why my housemates prefer to rilek2 pas balik keja and tido is the most crucial heaven thing ever,...damn,...now i'm starting to feel that weekend is the most liberating day among any other days...the last time i checked, it was during my internship's day since i felt that way,..but during that time, working under government body doesn't really make used any of your energy really that much,..you can even continue back your sleep upon arrival at work place,..hehe,..anyway, i better get some sleep,...rugi masa tido terbazir begitu sahaja,...hehe,...so until then, just wait for my next posting which by the way god knows' when that happen,..hehe,...taraaa..

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You're the flash of light on a burial shroud ..

2009-01-29T03:04:00.006+08:00

Usually i would just leave the blog blank and i prefer not to mention anything yet not important to write about, but since i have nothing else to do, so what ever,..

Today i had a surprise visit from two friends,..all the way from Subang,..Makan2 then look for a salon around Shah Alam,..which took us an hour and a half before finally settle with the hair make over,..the result was beyond outstanding,..it was breath taking,...hehe,...then balik,..

So,..iziit me or my day just got too interesting?

btw, i recently added a new friends on my facebook,..

Story 1
this one girl was my junior back in UiTM Samarahan,...i happened to remember her bcoz she like to smile with people that passed her by,..So i added her from "the people you may know", If you're a facebook user, you know where the function sits...hehe,...So she just happened to be one of those familiar faces that hardly to forget la...Suddenly,i saw her name and what are the oddly coincidence that she happened to be my ex-highschool mates' sister,...??? Damn!!

Story 2
There is one girl which recently i added also via facebook and YM,...She happened to be my friend's friend,..every now and then, we get in touch via YM and talked about stuff, mostly nonsense stuff, which I'm good at,...So last night, i accidentally view her photos which she added recently,..Then suddenly, BAM!! it just hit me! I saw my cousin in one of her photos!! She's my cousin's in law!!! bullet in my head!!!

Again, Izzit me or the world is really getting smaller,..??

Esok ada interview,...for me, the trick is simple,..just act like you don't want the job and don't give too much high hope,..If you trying too hard, you lose it,...in short: be yourself...but i can't help it if you so self conceited,..hehe...g'day!!

Somehow, the title doesn't seem to tally with the content,..

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Misteri nusantara

2009-01-28T00:59:00.010+08:00

Mysterious blogger who goes by the name of http://psychoseiko.blogspot.com, please reveal yourself,..let me view your blog so we can benefits both sides? you read my thoughts, so it would be fair if i read yours' too,...right? I just happened to wonder who was following my blog but reluctantly allow me to view his/her blog,...hurmmmm,...please leave me a comment or whatever if you're ready,..really appreciate if you could do so,..thank you...

Anyway, my decision is still vague,...i just hope i won't regret it...

damn,..lets carry on with venting on a different story shall we,...

To divert my problem just for a while, last night i had a great time with my two buddies. We went to niny's place and do some catching up with her,..picking up everything that we left off and updating with stories yg nonsense bin crap,...hehe,..like niny said: enjoying every minute of it...soon after, we went for a bowl, and I ended up losing the bet,...siot,damn it,..hahaha...went to Plaza Damas for a chill and back to Shah Alam sumwhere around 2 and continuing the night by chilling again at kedai mamak,..After all, everybody is busy with their lives..holiday is a perfect time to catch up with everything,..as for me, i think i am going to have myself a very long long haul of holiday mate',...

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i just hit the rock bottom....

2009-01-27T23:41:00.003+08:00

i don't know whether to feel mad or glad,..shud i be angry? or Happy?...by the fact that i won't be pursuing any career for the time being, and be that the last option left is to return to home sweet home,..really stir my brain to spin hysterically like a broken washing machine now,..argh,..all my life, i promised myself to make my own decision, albeit it would turned ugly in the end, i don't care!! As long as it coming from me,..its fine, i'm the one who is going to pay all the considerable effect of my own actions,..not my mum, not my dad, not my siblings, not my friends,..ME!!!!!!!!!! I'm ready to face the consequences....but suddenly, somehow something is preventing me from chasing my own dreams,...i think i just hit the rock bottom,....dang!!

tension akuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..............

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Halo!!!!!! Saje nk Update,...hehe,..

2009-01-23T02:49:00.009+08:00

I'm in a mood to write something in my blog,..I've already left it blank since ages.but apparently my mental wires doesn't seems to be on the right place now...besides, i am running short with ideas...had a lot things going inside my head lately,..i just hope my system won't go out of whack all of sudden,...huhu,...The more i think about my career gateway, the closer i feel to screwed things up so soon...i don't exactly feel like I'm cut for the job,..but the pressure put just left me with no other options other then to step forward and keeping that "let just do this" feeling intact...I'm still skeptical whether i can pulled this time off but we'll see...besides, the economy is going to the downfall, so why be choosy right? For the love of money, i am at the drop of the hat mate'...

I thought after finishing my degree, looking for a job would be the least of things that i should be worrying about,...but i am definitely barking on the wrong tree,..i take back what i said,..susah la carik keja,...dpt interview doesn't mean da dpt keja,...ingat dah ada degree,you tot you'd be selling like a hot cakes ka?? NOOOOOOOOO.....dream on....you have to owned the interviewers' expectation on you,..if you failed to achieve that,..then considered yourself unworthy of any positions,..hehe,..Ok,that's a lil over dramatic,but you get the idea somehow,...i went to the recent career expo, and i'm sure some of you know how many peoples showed up during that day, even the entrance to midvalley was all jammed,..Most came for the same reasons, which is looking for the right job and at the same time taking chances to submit their resume,..So looking at chances to get the ideal job by the number of people showed up,..hemmmmm,..i wasn't so sure about that,..what are the odds right? i mean if it doesn't, then consider yourself lucky,..i recently attended an interview with 600++ other candidates or more or i could be wrong,..but anyway, i was the 474 candidates, so i assume it could be more then that,...so chances for me to aces it was at the verge of "Why am i here again?"...the point is, it's not as easy as it look,..you need to outstand yourself then the rest,...and that "the rest" could be triple time better then the rest,..hehe,..

Regardless of my futile effort that day, i learnt that whatever opportunity comes in front of you, just grab it...that morning, i decided not to go bcoz i know hundred will showed up for the interview,...but i realized, if i don't try, i don't exactly know the outcome of my own actions,..what i do know that, if still stay asleep in my bed, the next thing i would do is just waking up berus gigi cuci muka and so on so forth right? but what could actually happened if i went to the interview instead??? the probability could be I could end up having a job or otherwise,..in spite of every possibility that would result at the end of the interview and FYI, i did not make the cut if you must know, i just added another experience, which makes me wiser in handling interview,..hehe,..tapi i sounded lying to you sbb nk sedapkan ati jerr,..hehehe,....to say im not that heart broken bile interview gagal, mmng tipu la kan...sape la tak frust kan, unless you are a creature from somewhere outside from the galaxy of bima sakti, then i'll refrained la.tapi like i said, it just make you wiser,at least you know where your mistake is/are and try to improve it in the future...tapi siyes, kalau korg dpt peluang tu, ambek jer,...dpt ke tak dpt ke, tu lain cite,..as long as you open up every options,..tu yg penting,..

When i come to think, I really missed going to class, and sitting waiting for the lecturer to come in, and while waiting, u could just joke around with your classmates and making a lot of noises like nobody's business,...i just missed hanging around lepak2 with classmates pas abis kelas and talked anything nonsense,...biasa la, manusia,..bila dah takder baru nk terasa,..heheh,..bile da masok U, rase nk blaja ke sekolah menegah, da keje, rase mcm nk blaja lagi...same goes to anyone right?..so appreciate every moment while it last ok,...

Owwwwwwkkkkaaay,..running short with ideas already,..maybe i'll share you my inspirational talk some other time ok,..hehe..until then, take care.

-fin-

Its daunting,.

2009-01-16T00:27:00.008+08:00

Sometimes, all it takes is just one single comment to actually deteriorate ones morale to the darkest pit,..and then you started to gaze upon yourself and wonder if you are really ready to face the real world? To give such answer like "I am up for challenge!" does sound very realistic don't you think?...but are we really up for the real challenge? Are you really ready to apply all the 5 years knowledge into the real field? My answer would be: Yes, if you are really into it, nothing is impossible,...and No, if you know that the skills that you posses doesn't seem to have any potential to help you with anything. And then, there's question like "Then what are you really interested in?".My answer would be: "Oh i don't know which one is more interesting,..i would love to get drunk and fly away to Aspen, or i really like to be the King of England or Warren Buffett maybe and go on a date with millions of supermodels, or anything which doesn't seems to involve using any of my brain cells but the figure in my bank account keep on multiplying even when i sleep"....*straight face* and somehow a piece of slepa jepon ended up in my mouth...

Then again, despite our best effort to avoid from doing things that we don't exactly keen of doing, at least we shud start with something...hurmmmmm,.....Now that is something to ponder about...hehe...ok, now I'm twisting you with my sick little mind,...Maybe "i-shud-stay-at-home" does seem like a good option after all,..but, money doesn't grow on tree remember,..

In the mean time, the world that we're living in is not all that butterflies, rainbows and peace with no wars,...Its a harsh world,....every second hundreds of people died, and here i am selfishly thinking that my life couldn't go any better then this...Sorry,....u just have to embrace yourself and keep your chins high, becoz the dark hour is that before the dawn,..hehe,...

i seriously need some sleep..

-fin-

take a leap of faith!

2009-01-14T02:48:00.003+08:00

i sort of took some extra that leap of faith today,...i wasn't so sure about it and i still can't believe i have the gut to actually do it,...but i did,...i'm settling some "Promise" to someone...at liz for now,i know i'm no longer bounded by the promise that i made,...In fact, I'm embracing it! hahaha,...

As for the previous post,..i apologize for being too blunt or too out spoken,..i don't want you to think that im trying to be so subjective or to slanted...ok, i don't need to explain myself,...good night everyone,...

Wish me luck for my interview!

keep your fingers crossed...

-fin-

chow sin cheeeeeee.................................bye!

2009-01-12T02:07:00.005+08:00

Updates...to cut my long story short,.....I just sit at home,..surfing,..sleeping,..eating,.....and oh, last Saturday i did went out with my boys to Hartamas for shisha, but apparently i am not very keen with anything related to smokes, so i just sit sit and drink drink and talk talk and laugh laugh then chow,..last Friday, went to the Youth fest at PWTC with Wana and just spending time strolling down the area and browsing through the booth/stall/cubicle/whatever you wanna called it, and filling up the questionnaires just so we can get hold of some goodies,..nothing eye-catching, so both of us decided to chow and meet up with Ziemah..balik then rest rest then tdo...Ahad? masak for two..Ali and I just cooked a meal for two,..Nasik planta and ayam berempah with ikan terubuk masin goreng,..eat very quickly as to avoid "unwanted" third person to barge in and join the small soiree,..huhu,..later at night, had my dinner eating some bloody unhealthy nasik lemak,..need some extra lemak to keep my body warm during the winter...

how menarik is that?!!

-fin-

duhhhhh,...

2009-01-09T00:29:00.003+08:00

It doesn't changed anything

giving you the muka seposen look

.........lalalalala.........

You might wanna try it again

oh syit,..i just sneezed!!

-fin-

Every thunder has a silver lining

2009-01-03T03:32:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the MIA,..it's been a while since i last blogged,..nothing much really happened these days,..after my 3p's class ended last Saturday and after a tiring trip from Johor, i basically just sit at home and mercilessly trying to kill the holy sweet mother of time dgn begitu saja,..bgn tido, then mengadap internet,..bgn tido, then mengadap internet,..tu jer,...blogging isn't becoming my sanity outlet anymore,...So all i do was surfing the web and gazing on the monitor like nobody's business,...nak menanam jagung seperti Palie pun takder tanah,since i lived on the higher ground where soil are rarely to be found anywhere here,...I missed my ol' routine,...huhuhu...I ain't gonna talk about new year's cliché and the new sickening-resolution-devoted-to-accomplish-mouthafacka-whatsoever bcoz i reckoned you would begged me down on your bended knees to stop once i started bragging on and on about my cock and bull stories as compared to listening to "how toenail fungus actually grew on Sponge bob's toe nail" story..hihihi...If you must know, My new year celebration wasn't that all huha-huha party all night long with a booze smeared on my grinning drunken face and with a pint of Tiger on the table...godforbid,..instead, i just spent my new year's night with my two friends, Aris and Aima, at the Curve, pushing the wave in a flock of mass human, with different scent of bloody goddamit body odor, just so we can reach to the other side of the building...it actually involved a lot of squeezing and breathing and pushing and anything the likes though,...it was rather a foolish attempt by the way, but as we reached at the pit stop, it was worth ramming-butt tackling-boobs touching session after all,..hehehe,...but after that, the three of us just stand there and stared at the flood of human, thinking that staying at home during new year’s eve was a better option after all…..I wont say much about 2008 as i suppose every year just merely the same as any other year,..ada baik and ada buruk nye,..its like going on an endless wild roller coaster ride where you don't exactly knows where your destination ends until somebody actually hit the breaks and the next thing you knew, you either stepping on a safer ground or dying horridly in the most nasty wicked way, depending on the amount of deeds that you achieved along the journey of self discovery...self discovery?? Whatever my tiny puny little peanut brain was talking about,..hehe,..i usually would ramble on some nonsensical talk about "How my depressing-dreadful years of 2008 ends",...but since it's already 2009, I'll refrained,...hehe,...

Moving on,...

I'm still waiting on embarking to my career path,..but apparently still no response taken so far,..So I'm still waiting and waiting for any interviews to actually jatuh di atas riba,...shit, i hate waiting in a drought where money doesn't seems to grow on tree and by waiting, still money doesn't fall from the sky either,..hehe,..(enuff with the metaphor pls!)...Which is why i need the job super pronto so i don't have to trouble my folks back home,..asik mintak pocket money jer,..pocket dorg pun dah kering,...But i did mentioned to my mum,my dad and my brothers, that for the time being i still need them to keep me afloat for awhile until i get a real job,..hurmmmmm,....yela, sewa rumah lagi, banje makan lagi,..having a long thought about continuing working at TGV for a while, but i hate to return back to my nightmare as i am not really that fond of working there anymore,..tengok la macam mane,...haiyaaa,...

And they said that Every thunder has a silver lining,...well mate, i stand accused! I just hope that one day i will bite your heads off if for some reason that your barks just seems to be much much louder then me singing in the shower,.....huhu,....

It's 4,..so i should get with my 10 hours of sleeping then,..do the math,..hehe,...

-fin-

Its hard to say goodbye!

2008-12-25T00:20:00.004+08:00

I just can't believe i am reaching to the end of another chapter as a student,...wow,...2 years and everything just blow my mind,...it feels just like yesterday that mock and I came here,.. clueless lagi mase tu,...Ye la kan, org swak dtg ke Semenanjung,...But we're not exactly that jakun ok!! ...hehe,...dtg sini pun sbb nk stadi Computer Science,...Bachelor Degree in Computer Science to be exact,...Our first impression after reaching to UiTM Shah Alam was: "Wow, damn it.Besar nyerrr UiTM ni...". jakun jugak la sikit kan,..hahaha...And we made promise to never get too involved or too attached with our classmates and that just mind our own silly business,...Huhu,..From then onward, we decided that for every class, "Sukati dorg la dorg nk dudok kat blkng ke, Dudok dpn lagi best,..."itu la kata2 aku n mock first masok kelas sbb takder tmpt kat blkng, ktorg kene dudok kat depan.hahaha,...Kira mcm Standoffish la mula2 dulu.hehe,...First couple of weeks, we did not remember any single names of our classmates except for a few yg da start nk tegur2,especially bdak2 laki la...To be honest, It took me nearly one semester to actually remember all their names,...hehe...The next thing we knew, we were invited to go on a trip to Port Dickson and to tell you the truth that was by far one of the most wonderful memories i ever had in my life,...huhu,..akan ku kenang sampai bila2,...And at that moment it became a starting point of a good friendships,...heheh...But as we get to know the person starting too well, baru kita kenal kat mana belang nyer, kat mane kuku nyer,...hehe...tapi so far, it was all a blessing in disguise,...macam2 jugak la drama slot samarinda berlaku sepanjang dua tahun nie,...walaupun ada yg tak best,it was worth remembering,...who knows i might as well laugh about it one day bila terkenang balik,..alamak cliche nye ayat,..hahaha....i tot i would bored myself to death bila berada di Shah Alam, but instead, i found so many diamonds here,...from pegi ke PD ke Melaka, sungai congkak pastu pegi Sungai Gabai, Naik Eye on Malaysia, pegi jalan2 kat putrajaya and Pegi genting pkol 2 pagi, mcm2 lagi la,..it was worth it!!! Gamba untuk every sem pegi trip situ sini memang banyak tak terkira lah,...hahaha,...

These past few days i keep thinking about wani and razman and how they are about to leave me,...huhu,...I must say, its really hard to let go and to say goodbye once you become so attached with them,...

Wanie

Wani, my kekasih yg tak di anggap,..amat la susah nk lupakan kamu sbb semua benda kita wat sama2,...huhu,...macam mane ntah leh jadi rapat ngn minah nie, olmost semua benda nk wat sama2,...Kalau bukan sebab peristiwa 4 org special iaitu Wani-zimah-razman-Hasliman, tak rapat pun ngn die nie,...hahaha,...our secret rendezvous tak lain tak bukan Pakli or main ayun kat flat 58,bwah umah die...i shared most of my stories with her and vice versa,...she understand me more then i understand myself,...although die slalu komen bnyk benda pasal aku, tapi die la bnyk mengajar aku camne nk jadi lebih matang,...hehe,..matang la sngt,...kekekeke.,...Banyak bnda lucu la ktorg harungi bsama2,...paling lucu jatuh motor yg teramat la bongok bin siot sekali dlm hidup aku.hahaha,...pastu pegi KL tapi tak takder hala tuju, and lepak kat KL sentral sekadar untuk berborak kosong (mcm la kat shah alam takleh borak kan),...hahaha,..pasni, takder la teman aku nk g mkn and complain time lapar,...huhuhu,...takder la teman aku nk g main ayun2,..takder la teman aku nk g KL jmp sepupu2 die yg ramai bin banyak,..takder da teman nk g main ngn kucing(just in case korg nk tau care panggil kucing dari jauh,suare kene high pitch slow pastu wat bergema sikit pastu panggil "Miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaauuuuuu,...ha camtu la aku ajar wani cara nk panggil kucing dari jauh sarawakian style,hehe),...takder da nk teman naik bas rapid g KL,...takder da teman aku nk g shopping beli brg mak aku kat bukit bintang sampai wani nangis sakit kaki,...huhu,..anyway, saya akan rindu kamu bangat wani ku,...hehehe.......

Razman

Razman, my best buddeh kat tanah melayu nie (tak tau la die pun anggap the same way as aku rase,..tapi anyway, man hg la kwn baik aku kat sini,..hehe). Mamat ni mcm mane ntah leh jadi rapat,...nak kata bnyk persamaan tak jugak,..maybe by chances or by sick crazy twisted fate has brought us to be what we are today kot,..if there is one friend who is most likely not to judged me dari awal kenal sampai sekarang, aku dgn berbangga menganugerah kan anugerah tu kat mamat ni.memiliki kemalasan tahap otromen tapi berhati mulia itu la Razman Ahmad,...mamat ni la bnyk mengajar aku bnyk benda,..aku ingat lagi, kalau tak sebab TGV and cuti semester last year and thanks to ody sebab gtau die yg aku masih stay kat shah alam, aku tak kenal pun ngn die nie(kenal dlm kelas je la),..our crazy idea tu venture carik keja tu la yg berjaya menempat kan ktorg kat TGV,..and start dari situ la aku start kenal Zek and Palie dan banyak la lagi,...most my adventurous days adalah bersama ngn mamat nie,...he helps me a lot in finding my own feet,...huhu,..banyak kali jugak la gadoh psl benda2 bodo tapi all is forgiven,..hahaha...after a while, we became like a brother,...a brother that i never wish i could have,..huhu,...lepas abis degree ni, takde lagi la teman nk usha awek,...takder da teman nk berborak psl masalah2 masing2,...takder da teman nk stadi,...takder da teman nk wat report susun ayat untuk die dalam bahasa inggeris,...anyway, aku nk wish best of luck for your future undertaking Mr.Razman Ahmad,..you can do it man,..u just never see your true potential,...

As i was writing this entry i can't help it but to shed a small tiny little tears at the very end of my eyes,...kikikiki,...mbak kata niny, I know its so cheesy and emo-ticon,..hehehe,..But what the heck!! Feeling so jaded about being departed with friends wasn't exactly just a simple "hello and goodbye" or 'friends come and go",..These people means a lot to me,..maybe i overstated my visit in Shah Alam, but pas kenal kwn2 kat sini, i never regret one single bit of moment spending it with them,...huhuhu,....Pas dpt keja, semua dah gone to their own separate ways,..i just hope masa di hadapan kelak, tak melupakan masa silam,...hehehe,...ayat power,..hahaha,..like water under the bridge,..the past isn't significant anymore,...god forbid that sort of things would happened,..hehehe,..

I'll definitely going to missed a few familiar faces terutama sekali of koz la Wani and Razman,...Not to mentioned Ziemah, Wana, Intan, Roha, Fiza, Lokman, Ody, Zek, Padel and the rest of my classmates(Sorry tak dpt nk type semua nama,ramai sngt hehehe),...If i were given a chance to do again my degree with these amazing peoples, i would do it with no question asked...hehehe....Kepada member yg masih jumpa next year, dont worry, i still be around,..hehehe,...

3p pun dah nk berakhir,..meaning, semua org akan balik and semester baru nk start,..i can't come up with any ideas on what to do with my life pas 3p habis,..where to start, what to do, shud i go back, shud i stay,..all these questions still linger and apparently still unanswered,..damn it,..

ok i shud stop and get my sleep now,..

Goodbye everyone!

p/s: I'll upload a few pictures later,...nk upload bnyk, tapi gamba bnyk sngt,..hehe,..later!! and Oh, Merry Christmas!!

-fin-

Happy Birthday Putra Haddy!!!

2008-12-24T14:48:00.001+08:00

Happy 23rd Birthday to my dearest Forever Best Buddy
Abdul Hadi Abdullah Halim
(adik beradik oi,...hahaha)

Da stars wishes u,da brightness of moon wishes u,da sunshine wishes u,da waves wishes u,da flowers wishes u,da morning wishes u,wish wishes u last but not da least a heartless wishes u ""happy birth day""

-Fin-

Mari mendengar ceramah,..hehehe...

2008-12-20T00:32:00.012+08:00

I would be the last person to post anything so "SAINT" on the blog,..hehe...i get it a lot about people commenting about me being "not-so-religious" and i get it...i really do...and i know that i may not be a good muslim, but at least i can say that im a good person(taken from ayat ali hehe),...eventhough being a good person does not guarentee any syurga.tapi semua itu diantara kita dan DIA,...fuyooo,..ayat tu yg tak tahan,..heheh....

anyway,back to the main story,...Recently my mind keep on weighing out everything, especially about venturing into the working life,..with my result yg dah kuar and kurang memberangsangkan, makin la aku emo,...heheh,....Plus other issues which doesn't make any sense pun menjadi punca. Anyway, i was looking at some bulletin board over friendster and terkenang la psl "Why we often sigh?" or "why i often sigh?"...One of my friends used to say "Kalau kita mengeluh sekali, hilang la seribu kebahagiaan kita di dunia"...(BTW, the word "di dunia" di tokok tambah.heheh). i read it, and i feel better about it...So if you feel like you world is falling apart,..maybe ayat2 ni bisa mengingat kan kita kembali kepada sesuatu,..sesuatu tu aku pun tak tau ape laa,...Lu pikir la sendiri,...heheh,..

Kita selalu Bertanya………………..dan Al-Quran sudah menjawabnya…………….

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU DIUJI?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," ("I am full of faith to Allah") sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan, sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."

-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesua tu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA RASA FRUST?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."

- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."

KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

KITA BERTANYA : APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka… ?

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KITA BERTANYA : KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?

QURAN MENJAWAB

"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

KITA BERKATA : AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!!

QURAN MENJAWAB

"… ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir."

- Surah Yusuf ayat 12

So How? Rasa ok x? hehe...btw, i don't fancy the word "Lu pikir la sendiri.." from that guy...it gives out a wrong meaning especially when kids says it..dont you think so? my 10 years old cousin once bluntly said that word to his mother,...i was so surprised that he actually said that,..for cry sake, to his mother ok...boleh bayang kan kita ckp "lu pikir la sendiri" kat mak kita? pencemaran bahasa betol la..Kids are much prone to practice what we adults do, which include verbal and non verbal communication jugak la kan,...so bila ayat2 sedemikian di guna pakai as if its something which seems acceptable for everyone to even publicly say it out loud as a daily used language, budak2 pun jadi terbiasa,..in a long run, apa yg kita dpt adalah budak2 yg biasa menggunakan bahasa yg kurang ajar..huhu,...why do we even allowed our very own race tainted our mother's tongue?? cewah, berceramah la pulak,..hahaha...ok, im straying too far from the main topic here,..hehe...

So moral of the story, walaupun kita pk nasib kita malang,..ada lagi org yg lebih malang dari kita kan,...kita malang sbb hidup kita di uji oleh Allah S.W.T..so dont feel bad if you have to extend your semester bcoz of FYP or people's result are way better than you or et cetera et cetera...huhu...bcoz at the end of the day, its your life that matters kan..hehe...sekian,wasalam..

=p

p/s: blog jadi bongok la,...setting tiba2 berubah,..brensek betoi la...huhu..ahh, lantak la labu,..baca sudey..

-fin-

Devastated!!

2008-12-14T03:02:00.003+08:00

I really don't handle myself well when facing rejection,...seriously...i get so depress, silent treatment, feel like wanting to scream on top of my f*cking lungs and giving somebody a big sucker punch on the gut!huhu...

After found out that my "to-look-forward-to" interview got turned down quite recently, it was like getting myself a big slapped on the face...and the world was no longer a fair place to live in...its not exactly "turned down" as in reject terus la, they just put me under KIV...hehe...

I really appreciate all the condescending pep talk about "rezeki ada di mana-mana" et cetera et cetera...but if only i have a switch to turned everything off, which i would immediately turned it off, tapi sekdaaa...so i ended up thinking how sore loser i was and my mind keep on gushing with nonsense thoughts like "why they got it,i don't?", "where did it all went wrong?","Did i sent it to a different address?" , "was it becoz i didn't put my picture on it?"...damn it! Am i not cut for the job?

I mean, how often do you got to be interviewed by 2 to 3 companies in a day???????

it happened only once in a hundred gizzillion blue moon!!! but it my case, i just have to wait another 6 dreadful months before it happens. and when it happened, i proly be rich by then! hehehe....

Yes, i do consider the fact that "After this, peluang banyak lagi laaa,...tunggu jer"...like i said, i dont faced rejection well..heheh...

sekpa sekpa....bila masa kita tiba, then tiba la masa kita...hahahaha.....as for now, mari ber job hunting!!! yay!!

Anyway,.....

Planning banyak, tapi duit takdak!!!!! so how?

-fin-

Berfikir bila la nk dpt keja??

2008-12-11T02:10:00.005+08:00

Nothing much to do today,..i pretty much just sit at home, get my laundry done and went out to grab some foods,...Free viewing such as Sinetron: kesah dongeng endon, rahasia pelangi, putri salju, mutiara and not forgeting Sutera Maya, has silently becoming my latest addiction,...ooppss kantoi,..Hahahaha...Its actually interesting to watch dowh,..these peoples actually becomes my laughing stalk...heheh...nak melayari internet pun sik tauk nk layari apa,...So i ended up writing you this entry instead,...

I keep on having a long thoughts about venturing into the working life lately,...be it any opportunities that comes in a full throttle after finishing my 3p, I'll accept it with a open hand,...hehe,..insyAllah,...Besides, this could be the perfect time to add a few columns of experience in my sparse resume ain't it..However, a few things might holding back that enthusiastic visionary of mine:

1. No diploma Transcript
2. No guaranteed result for this semester yet,..anything could happened..until next week, then i can say something..
3. my CGPA might as well dropped thanks a lot to FYP.
4. Resume yg mcm hampehh.
5. Belom scanned all the CV.(mcm lah ada CV untuk di scan.hehe..)
6. Belom ambik gamba.

Hurmmm,...I mean, sure i have my diploma to hold me up for a while, tapi there's no guarantee that any companies would be much interested with the digits on my transcript and the level of skills in which i possess now that seemingly disappointing.heheh...Surprisingly, i excel much during my degree,..heheh...boleh la,..

Anyway, i am waiting for a call interview but apparently none replied taken so far,..so i assume I'm not exactly a person of interest anyway,...hehe...but i still have a few tricks under my sleeve, but still, i don't want to put too much high hope at any of the options as expectation might running too high from any potential employer later,..huhuhu,...I've been thinking to go on a different directions on my field of work, tapi what field is still remain unknown,..hahahaha...malas na juak maok megang programming lagik eh,..huhu...

Ok lah kawan.Masa untuk tido. Another day untuk beristi rehat di rumah,..hehe...Sinetron here i come! heheh...

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ca plane pour moi!!

2008-12-10T00:40:00.004+08:00

What dizzit with Americans and their wrong perception about ISLAM,...I mean, I'm in no right position to dispute about anything related to religions or whatsoever, but after watching "Body Of Lies" last Saturday, who wouldn't...acting-wise, Leonardo De Caprio was superb! how often do you see a Caucasian reciting a verse from the Quran?? Leonardo De caprio plak tuu,..even i can't remember any recitation from the holy quran, kecuali doa2 biasa tau lerr...But I seriously think that there are a lot of sensitives issues that has been brought into anyone's attention in the movie and a terrible display of how radical or extremist a muslim can be.Everthing is so revaling in the film and can even trigger a different sentiment...They even mentioned the meaning of the word "Jihad" and "Syahid" and that the muslim are taking advantage on the sanctity of the word to be used as a reason to avenged the enemies,.. maybe they have a hidden agenda, i dont know,...but this sort of thing can actually tarnished our Islamic values,...people will get a different message after watching it...especially the children la...Ok, i shud stop commenting on the movie.Huhu,..watch it, then you'll understand what im saying, unless you already read the book by Robert Ignatius ...i mean, why can't they portray a decent sides of Islam? the actually one...what is so wrong about that??bukan setakat meletup diri and amek video pancong kepala org..right? im just saying,..heheh...

I've watched twilight dowh,..It's was less then what you would expected from a box office movies sbb the story lines was obviously flat all the way until the end of the story,..hehe,..less action but more to romance...even the romance scene was cut out during the movie!!!...so it was more about courting the human-vampire thingy la....people proly just watched it sbb pelakon2 yg hot kot,...and everytime i opened somebody's blog or facebook(especially pompuan), they wud mentioned how hottie Robert Pattison was and everything,.....pffftttt.....heheh...excuse my french mate'..hehe...i like the soundtrack dowh,...

Anyway, just wanna share you this video...

I am the king of the divan!!! hehe...Completely Clueless on the lyrics but i love the song,...hehe...i dont even know what he was saying mate'...hahaha,...

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I'm feeling random...

2008-12-09T15:47:00.004+08:00

Dah lamak eh sik update blog,...hehe...besides, i don't have anything else to do,...
Everybody's gone for raya haji...So Shah Alam becomes so abandoned,...which gives me a theoretical idea that majorities of people who lives in Shah Alam are mostly from outside the provenance...Since last Friday, the population of people are gradually decreasing, so as the kedai makan and kedai runcit started to closed as well,...Boring nyaaa,..kinek tok baruk aku tauk giney rasa nya sik balit raya,..huhu...not that it really matter to me as Raya Haji is not really that celebrated occasion yg di celebrate di Kuching, but then again, the spirit of "Balik Kampung" which i sense from my peers yg actually balik kampung, menjadikan aku rasa mcm maok balit rumah!!!!!!!!

in spite of this dreary circumstances , i cant help it but to realized it has been a years since i first blogged,..time really flies that fast, and for a year many things' happened,...I still remember my last Raya Haji with Palie's family and the balik kampong ride back and forth from Shah Alam to Perlis...Huhu,...When i read back all my previous entry, rasa mcm lucu la pulak,..hahaha...damn it! sappy la pulak,...dah la tgh dgr lagu jiwang bin karat,..hahahahaha.......dah dah dah,...enuff!

Sometimes it really captivate me: while I'm writing this entry, you actually reading my thoughts...If i type : "aku bijak!" and now you are saying it in your head too!!...hahahaha......your conscience is speaking in you, while you read this entry,... symptom orang2 yg bosan,...hehehe...argh, boring nya,..

I was browsing tru the internet, somehow my eyes laid on this short story called "Chip on his Shoulder",...this is the long-story-short of the whole story telling...it was very compelling and i hoped you gained something from the story...

One day,....

Mr.Conor Oberst was pretty damn angry at few of his friends, not becoz of what they said or what was written on the screen that trigger his fury at them,...it was the way they treated him as a friend that pissed him off,...He can be goofy or sengal2 ayam at times, simply bcoz he wanted to make the environment to be less intense for his friends...In his own defense, he thought he was trying to be nice. Maybe his friend was deceived by his whole pretense and started to get the wrong message. Sengaja and bukan sebab Mr.Conor Oberst memang bodoh bin bahlul...Whatever the reason is, that doesn't give anyone any right to misconstrue about him, but poor Mr.Conor Oberst, his friends did .You see, when people took that advantage and things started to laid out by his pride, Mr.Conor Oberst get really annoyed with his friends.So he started to gaze upon what shud be done and giving the proper casualties to his friends."Well you asked it to be intense my friend, so now i'm giving you the courtesy that you asked for" said Mr.Conor Oberst to his Friends."With a friend like you, who needs enemy my dear friend.Your Welcome anyway" replied Mr.Conor and left his friends. end of story.

Moving on,...

Hehehe....You see, sometimes a blog can play a bigger part in influencing ones life, be it just untuk melepas kan batuk di tangga,hehehe,...or nk menghilang kan rasa bosan,..nak menyampaikan message, or even melepaskan geram,....I usually used it to melepaskan amarah especially FYP,..hehehe....tapi itu sudah lepas...OK, now i'm talking nonsense...hahaha,...My point is that, what ever sentences I wrote here, it influence you somehow, even just a little,...you can either take it or leave it void,..sometimes curiosity Killed The Cat,...what the f*cking hell am i rambling about is out of question has nothing to do with anyone, it's a matter of fulfilling my residue,...hehehe,..sah aku gila....hahahaha....

Yesterday was raining cats and dog,..today it's like a dog days of summer,..my skin was fried to the bone while i was going out to get some food,..last night, i don't even have to switch on the fan before sleeping, it was so cold that one blanket wasn't enough,..hehe...tipu jer,...anyhoo, my point is, mother nature is foaming at the mouth,..tanah runtuh, banjir etc etc,..If its not one thing, its another kan? hurmmmm,..and whos' the victim? kita jugak kan.. why are we the victim? becoz we started it on the first place...huhu,..true? In the heat of this moment, i cant help it but to wonder why these high on the hog people yg tinggal kat bukit antarabangsa dah tau tmpt tak selamat masih jugak nk tinggal situ? why? they could've pick a better place to reside in. I guess maybe they tot tmpt tu slamat kot...hehe...In the end, berkurang la org kaya kat Malaysia,..Minus the tanah runtuh and banjir,the moral of the story is that hidup ini seperti cuaca di Malaysia, sekejap panas sekejap ujan. Life is unpredictable mate'. One moment you keeping you chins up, the next things you knew, your world is falling apart...So seperti kata zimah, live life like a lalalala....hehehe....

damn it,..the cloud is getting dark. Kan dah ckp, unpredictable. hehehe...

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Ziemah, Enjoy your holiday!!!

2008-11-30T04:56:00.006+08:00

I just spent my Saturday night with Ziemah kuuccciinngg, Wani and Razman watching movies,....Finally, I'm out from under my coconut shell!!! hahaha...Spending time with Ziemah maybe for the very last time(which i hope not) as she'll be heading to her loaf today...Sedih sedih,...huhu....I hope she'll be back to Shah Alam before I even knew it,...Hehe,..I'm planning on taking a long liberating hiatus after 3p,...Maybe a month, Or kalau tiada aral melintang, dpt keja,then stay...That's the whole plan so far,....Dang it! I suddenly feel like all things are coming to an end,...i feel i just wanna eat them and keep them in my stomach, so that they won't go away and stay close to me,...Hehehe,...they are the apple of eyes...hehehe....What wud i do without you guys,...huhuhu.....Emo~ :p

Hahahaha,...i watched this video like a million times before i fell asleep,...was laughing by myself then,...hehehe,....did i just profane in the video?? ahahahaha,.....i think i did...kakakaka,.... =p

Anyway, congrats razman,..Im proud of you bro,...Aku bangga atas hasil titik peluh hg sendiri, hg dapat something jugak...hehehe....

babai ziemah!!

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Situasi kita ngak berbeda,,,,

2008-11-29T13:11:00.002+08:00

I don't have much of a topic to talk or to discuss or anything to trash out,simply bcoz i just dont have any...Hahaha...i rarely go out these days and most of my time are well spent in the lab...Wait, Well spent with an exclamation marks please...hehehe,.....as i mentioned in the previous post, we basically do nothing there....hehehe....So investing that Rm8 thousand on each one of us was more a liability then an assets....Hahaha...I can update u with my daily routines in the lab but i reckon u'll be bored,..so just spared u the all the boring details unless i ran out of topic to post,...hehehe....

Anyway,...This week will be the final task for the FYP as we are required to submit the Final Report (brapa bnyk final ntah da kne hntr,...hehehe) by Friday,...We need to make sure that the report are well reported and cited and binded and formated and semua2 lah,...The report must be binded with a Green Hard Cover with name, topics and everything whatnot written at the front, which also bring the most rightous definition that anyone been praying for the longest period of time, that is: "YEAH,IT's OVER!!.

The not so best part is, the hard cover binding costs us rm17-rm20 per-copy,...and we need to produce 3 copies...My math maybe sucks, but when it comes to money, i never missed a single cents...hehehe...So campo tambah tolak darab bahagi, around rm60!!!!! My god!! dah la running out of cash, nk kne baya hard cover pulak,....damn it,...I realize that money don't grow on tree and despite they're made from papers and papers are made from tree,..itu tidak bermakna duit itu tumbuh di atas pokok,...hahahaha....bodoh nyer aku... =p

Anyway, if its for the sake of ending this whole adversity to an end,..Hands Down im in!!hehe,..

Arghhh,..malas nya nk pegi kelasss,...

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F.R.EEEEEEEE..........

2008-11-26T15:47:00.007+08:00

The 3p class started yesterday, and frankly speaking, the class can be rather boring and fun at the same time,..which is wierd but apparently true,..hahahaha....these past 2 days have been fun,....Here You would've tot it wud turn out ugly and dreary to tears,..but in fact, it wasn't at all....we spent most of the time ym-ing and surfing the net whilst Mr.Brian, the instructor, sincerely teaching us in front of the class...lab exercise was mostly spent doing forever nothing rather then doing the exercise itself...so basically, we learn nothing accept for the part of being the best actor that anyone could only hope for...hehehe....

The end result of FYP is finally out, and it out turned just ok...i guess...huhu...basically, those whos' name were listed for final report hard cover thingy-do, you can now stop to feel sorry for yourself and enjoy the sleepless night in seattle...hehehe,....but even so, i feel so deeply sorry to friends yg tak lepas,..berjuang bersama2 tapi luck lain2...best of luck for the second round of battle royale...Jgn putus asa ok...

Anyway, my mummy and my daddy and my sisters are on their way to Sabah oready,..Dang it i couldn't make it to Sabah...my cousin Patricia is having her wedding soon at Sampoerna, Sabah...Huhu...Anyhoo, Congrats on the wedding anyway...hehe...

I finally started to feel that all my burden are starting to vanished in midst of shadow of my forever forsaken 6 months of nightmares....haaaa,panjang ayat tuuu...hahahaha...

Once waken up from sleep, im free from the nonsensical thought of "Damn Shit! ada fyp~!!"...hehe...Now, its all about "***bunyi cengkerik*****" which actually means nothing!! Its a good sign of a healthy brain and a healthy life!!!Hahahahahahahaha,.........i am finally freeeeeeeehhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......

...unless bad things happen,....then i swear im going to contemplate a suicidal mission...

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Demo dan Dinner

2008-11-21T10:11:00.004+08:00

Updates!!

I was so tied up since my last post and my final year project exhibition went quite the opposite then what i expected. Despite a few thorny comments yg boleh membuatkan aku berada di uitm sekali lagi next semester, but i feel more to a relieved than scared.huhu...I spent almost 2 hours sitting down with my examiner iaitu En.Azizian, explaining to him about my project. while he responded with a non-optimistic reply, which actually make a whole lot of sense..hehe..He was so nice and the whole evaluation become more of a decent conversation between two friend instead of student-examiner sort of thing. He just put less tense on my head and explained that he only wanted me to gained something from the project, which is true becoz all this while all i wanted was to passed this project without considering the impact of the project to me. He gave me another chance to fixed whatever that needs to be fix before the actually viva,which is this coming Monday. So i have plenty of things that needs to be settled.adoi...

The dinner on the other hand, was boring...out of the whole batch of CS230, only 6 person showed up...whilst the other degree program berseronok bergumbira mengambil gambar bersama2 classmate sendiri, the 5 of us just sat there......*bunyi cengkerik*

I'll update later.

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I am up for this.

2008-11-13T10:05:00.010+08:00

I finished my finals,...the last paper for the entire degree as far as i can hoped,....

But why do i get the uncanny feeling that this is ain't over yet??
oh i terforgot! masih ada FYP menunggu,...heheh...*sigh*

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This is just my One-moment thoughts....

"I've tried my best to make believe that deep down in my head, i am going to excel this project.No matter what and I'll do whatever it cost me,..hands down, no question about that...i keep on reminding myself with a positive insight such as: "yes i can do this" "its either do or die" "No, i cannot quit now" "if these people can,why can't i?" etc etc...But when all is said and done, it just scared the hell out of me to learn that others dah siap,...huhu,....the thoughts of knowing that org lain da siap, it became my fear,..it became my silver bullet,..."

end of thoughts.

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Regardless,....

i should start doing something,...Stop looking at others.Life is not always that sugar and spice and there is no such thing as "What mine is yours and what yours is mine".Its nothing but a bullock. What the heck.Kerja org kerja org la kan, kerja aku kerja aku, right?.So if i don't want to feel sorry for myself, then i better stead the boat faster and get everything done.6 days in row is going to be a major challenged.If you read this, then pray for me, my sanity and my sane, and all the possible good endings.I'll promise you this entry will be my last boring-sickening post ok?hehe...

Until then, my blog life is going to be put on hold for a while.And we have a pre-graduation dinner coming up which i'm not exactly thrill to look forward to since its going to be as the same day as my presentation day.But i think everyone deserve a little moment to rejoice to the end of another journey as a "student".At least we owned that.

"Success is not final, Failure is not fatal,..It is the courage to continue that counts.."

Winston Churchill

You better be right Winston,...or i swear I'm gonna dig you from hell.Until then peace and take care!
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Oh Crap,..Tema untuk dinner is "flora"? How lame can these people be.Picture me wrapping myself with a leaf at certain body parts *if you know what i mean*..hihi....pervert...hahaha...

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Kesah Kak Kiah yg sengal...

2008-11-08T07:08:00.005+08:00

I found this story about this woman named kak Kiah in someone's blog...I just smile while reading it,...so i hope u do too!

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Why did Kak Kiah go to a movie with his 18 friends?

Because below 18 not allowed Lah !

Kak Kiah wants to buy a TV set. She goes to a shop.

Kak Kiah : 'Do you have color TV ?'

Salesgirl : 'Yes !'

Kak Kiah : 'Give me a green one, please'

Kak Kiah is filling up an application form for a job.

She supplied the information for the columns on Name, Age, Address etc. Then she comes to column on 'Salary Expected', but she is not sure of the question. After much thought, she writes ' Yes '

Kak Kiah goes to a store and sees a shiny object.

Kak Kiah : 'What is that shiny object ?'

Salesgirl : 'That is a thermos flask.'

Kak Kiah : 'What does it do ?'

Salesgirl : 'It keeps hot things hot and cold things cold'

kak Kiah : 'I'll buy it'

The next day, Kak Kiah goes to work with her thermo flask

Boss : 'What is that shiny object ?'

Kak Kiah : 'It's a thermos flask.'

Boss : 'What does it do ?'

Kak Kiah : 'It keeps hot things hot and cold things cold'

Boss : 'What do you have in it !?'

Kak Kiah : 'Two cups of coffee and one cup of ice cream'

After taking photocopies of documents, Kak Kiah always compares it with the original for spelling mistakes.

Kak Kiah always smiles during lightning storms because she thinks her picture is being taken.

Why can't Kak Kiah dial 911?

Because she can't find the number 11 (eleven) on the phone.

Kak Kiah had just bought a new computer and was using it. When she encountered some problems. She decide to use the 'Help' command after some tries. Soon after, she became very irritated and called the computer retailer for support.

Kak Kiah : 'I press the 'F1' key for help lah, but it's been over half an hour and still nobody come and help me?!'

Kak Kiah with two red ears went to her doctor. The doctor asked her what had happened to her ears and she answered, 'I was ironing a shirt and the phone ring, lah - but instead of picking up the phone, I accidentally picked up the iron and stuck it to my ear, lah' 'Oh dear !' the doctor exclaimed in disbelief. 'But what happened to the other ear ?'
Kak Kiah answered : 'That stupid dumbo called back, !!!!'

Kak Kiah talk to a long-distance telephone operator.

Kak Kiah : 'COULD YOU PLEASE TELL ME THE TIME DIFFERENCE BETWEEN Taipei AND LAS VEGAS ?'

Operator: 'JUST A MINUTE...'

Kak Kiah : 'THANK YOU' AND PUTS DOWN THE PHONE.

After completing a jigsaw puzzle she'd been working on for quite some time, Kak Kiah proudly shows off the finished puzzle to a friend. 'It took me ONLY 5 MONTHS TO DO IT', Kak Kiah brags. 'FIVE MONTHS ? THAT'S TOO LONG', the friend exclaims. 'YOU ARE A FOOL.' Kak Kiah replies, 'SEE THIS BOX, IT IS WRITTEN FOR 4-7 YRS'.

At a bar in Jln P.Ramlee, the man to Kak Kiah's left tells the bartender, 'JOHNNIE WALKER, SINGLE' and his companion says, 'JACK DANIELS, SINGLE'. The bartender approaches Kak Kiah and asks, 'AND YOU, MADAM ?'

Kak Kiah replies : 'Puan Rokiah Shafie, MARRIED lah'

Hahahahahahaha...............It's either she's mentally challenged or just plain dumb. Anyway, di harap anda semua terhibur.hehehe.....

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All Work and No Play...

2008-11-06T22:03:00.006+08:00

Its been a very hectic week for me and the rest of my classmates...final report submission plus final exams....i have reached my limit....i'm all wrecked...

I spent most of my nights making the most out of my brain potential to either making sure that my report is "well prepared" (akibat kebiasaan membuat kerja last2 minit,...But hey, most of us performed our best at the 11th hour right) or getting my heads down belajar untuk paper XML...These whole event has caused me my sleeping hour to entirely changed...Siang jadi malam, malam jadi siang....But on the bright side, my skin and my complexion is getting fairer!!!!!!!! hahahahahahaha...........

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I just put one foot in the grave....

2008-11-03T10:29:00.005+08:00

If that was a sick joke,...then I would laugh,...and you just cracked the hell out of me...

If it wasn't, then i am going to spin myself in someone's grave....and maybe just maybe palak aku dah kerek kali nak!!

ada kah ini akibat tidak tido yg ekstrem?? or akibat tidak siap bwt keja?

o m g...I am seeing double...

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Ada orang ngeso.....sik perluuu....

2008-11-03T07:35:00.017+08:00

The Japanese see self-assertion as immoral and self- sacrifice as the sensible course to take in life.
—Kurosawa, Akira

*Self-assertion=the act of demanding recognition for oneself or of insisting upon one's rights, claims, etc.

i just wanted to accentuate the word self-assertion in this entry. why might you ask? Ok.In the midst of this whirlwind of havoc(mbak kata anonymous) which amicably required us to squeez all the god forsaken juices(If you know what i mean), some just couldn't helped it but to be so self-conceited and disturbing others with unnecessary criticism and the so-called "I-have-a-favor-to-asked" just becoz they done with the job. I get the picture that you wanted people to noticed your greatest achievement, and i congratulate you for that,..but was it really that necessary dude? Diam2 sudah,....I mean, i don't mean to be insolence, but i'm a damsel in distress, and honestly, i don't think i have time for a sore loser like you asking me to do your report just so i can get a fly ticket back to Kuching.Ingat aku sekda duit ka?? You wanted to tell the world that your done with your fyp? go ahead, be my guest...but just let me be.And by virtue of this mere self-assertion of yours, i just wanted to say "Good for you then,..Peace and God Bless".....

p/s: If happened that the person i was talking about somehow read this entry, baca la labu...Sue me!you deserve the cake more than anyone else ! kakakaka.........

marah tok..marah tok,...yerrr....hahaha....I'm having a delusion...anger management...

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I didn't signed up for all this..........

2008-11-02T01:48:00.003+08:00

Ever since i posted the comment wrote by the anonymous person-dude-babe-chick or what ever he/she was, I noticed that my site meter suddenly increases its number.heheh....Anyway, i know people usually don't kiss and tell, but Reveal your true identity! heheh...Kidding...

Okay, i am not going to roll you onto another of my sugar coated candy posting again,..HAhaha,...maybe not today,...

I just wanted to wrapped myself in a dirty blanket and citing different opinions about this and that and sleep like i just don't care,....Malas ehhhhhh.......any form of activity would qualify other than merenung program and making report,.....be it memancing ka, menebang pokok ka,...anything random would qualify...Oh wait! didn't i just said i would spare you my sugar-coated candy complain! hehe...

.....i did........

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Anonymous,..he said,she said....

2008-10-29T07:30:00.013+08:00

Somebody wrote me a comment, which by the way startle me for a moment.........

Anonymous said...

every now n then, i feel compelled to write my take upon this matter as it abruptly popped into my head right after reading this entry.likewise, barely this recent month or so, i feel like a whirlwind of havoc had struck me with a blow which cause me to stuck in a mental turmoil,yet to the point of no return. contemplating my future, i can't even think that i will be able to cope myself with such things. but rather,with spirit "aku-nak-grad-sem-ni-no-matter-what" i try to brush aside all those negative perceptions developed within me. Whether or not realize, this "spirit" had dragged me into the later stages of this so-called life challenges. yet i try to equip myself with sheer n bold determination in order for me to move ahead. pondering upon others predicaments will make us realize that we're not alone with our difficulties since as we began to carve our own path, things start to turn upside down, one way and around. hence, despite all this roller coaster ride, i have no regret whatsoever putting me into this assembly. so, just brace yourself! be stronger than ever! i just know u can bro!

(Note that this original masterpiece did not go any form of filtering process)

First time reading it,i swear i thought it was a lyrics,...but after reading once-twice-and three times,I was propelled and i come to realized that it came straight from one heck of a concern heart,...Hehehe...With a nicely arranged used of syllables, lexis and expressions,...It was compelling and I was captivated by how linguistically smooth-tongued and resonating language that he/she just used to delivered his/her point of view on the account of my previous post.Anyhoo,I personally thought it was totful, genuine and quite a bold attempt especially coming from somebody that i barely even know...hehe...or not...

Anyway,...Back to the point of the story,...while this so called "predicament" just keep on continue making our life a living hell, i just couldn't agree more:I'm not alone...huhu,...I just need to accept that fact that despite the massive turmoil, which started to make my life to be more of an agony than it already is, i just need to get it done and look the other way. Consider this whole adversity as a challenged in making me a better individual,...hehe....

Thanks, whoever you are,... =p

Keep your comments coming and wud love to hear more from you guys!

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Damsel in distress,......

2008-10-27T20:40:00.006+08:00

I just came back from a nice walk and a sip of fresh air. Bought myself a bar of Snickers and a pack of soya bean milk,...I just need some serenity, calmness and a moment for myself, just to clear my cloudy head from everything,...Take it from me people(this is what i usually do la). When you feel so stress:

a) Go for a nice walk alone. (jgn la g tmpt yg sunyi or bahaya kalau da tau tmpt tu bahaya,..kang tak psl2 kne rogol or kne rompak, betol?).
b) Turn on your mp3,hit it to the maximum volume and just listen to your favorite songs, and in my case i usually listen to slow-mo music mcm the perishers or thirteen sense,..hehe...
c) Call your mum or dad as your parents usually knows how to calm you down.
d) Eat something sweet like chocolate. It works...It has to do with endorphins in the brain laa,..It can trigger your happy mood,...klau tak caye,google...

Sometimes, all i need is just a dose of encouragement to keep my sanity intact from all the dreary situations...I just want to talk to someone,that's it...a word of advice from my peers can be rather helpful sometimes, especially at this time of distress,...Oleh itu, I appreciate all the nasihat yg diberikan just so you guys can burn my spirit,..trimas banyak2,...I hope you know, i don't simply throw your words away,..bukan masok kanan, keluar kiri,..Little by little, i realized that if i stop now, it won't make much of a difference anyway,..so baik hbs kan,...betol??

Ok Enuf,..I don't want to trigger any form of sentiment or compassion from you...I just need to let it all out from the system,..Hehehe,...

Apa nak jadi, jadi la labu,..

Argh, i need some overhaulin'!

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Choices! comes from the word Choi+e(S)

2008-10-26T02:25:00.003+08:00

Have you ever feel so mislaid? confused with what you are doing? or where do your path is leading you to?

sadly to say,i do? Well maybe apart of it...

I really hate to admit it, but i think I'm going trough a wrong path,..These entire time and skrng baru nk sedar?? duuuhhhh,........and the stupid thing was i had my chance to changed it, but i turned every options down becoz i keep on having a misconception thoughts about "how i couldn't survive the tormented nightmare in the new Uni on my own, without having someone to sit around and talk during lunch???",...If you don't called that stupid, then i don't know what other terms to describe it.

I finished my diploma in Computer science a couple years ago. Though i may not be good at it, but still, i succumbed everything in and endured all my wrong doings to the final core.For the record, Programming isn't exactly my forte from the very beginning despite how i always wonder how i managed to pulled everything off. And when my degree came into the picture, i should have known that i cannot repeat the same mistake...Again, which is Computer Science,...At that time around, i was too naive, plus having in mind that the only friend whom is going to be around me when i came to Shah Alam is taking Computer Science also, i become so tempted to take the same course as him,...Sbb takder geng punya psl,..and don't get me wrong, i don't blame him,..he made his choice as i did mine,..but the difference was: He made a right choice, i made a wrong choice,...

Regardless of having a friend or mate or teman or not, I should have known by then what i really wanted to do in life, and not to follow others,...I should have change my bearing and pick what i wanted!!!,..Pick something that physically and mentally fit for me. Deciding on something that bring considerable effects on my future!! Hence, the consequences of my own choice paid off today,...I am sitting down in front of my pc, feeding the requirement of work and clueless with what i see and what i do,...Its not that i don't want to finish it.Its not that i don't want to do it.Noo, not even close. I just don't know how to do it. Who should i blame?

a) Me for the thickness of my head bcoz i failed to see what i really wanted to do.
b) The syllbus for teaching us nothing but a bunch of crappy concepts and a non sense theories.

But i am not speaking for myself.The entire time i was sailing on a same boat with people more or less like me,...bukan aku sorg.ramai lagi.Perhaps this is the "i regret.." speech just to calm my senses down.

i wish there's a divine intervention to explain why i did what i did or changed everything,...perhaps i have a greater purpose in stored, i don't know,...

My lecturer once asked me:
"what do you want to do in life? what is your ambitions?"

My answer:
"i definitely don't see my future in IT or Computer Science' area...This degree is merely just a degree,..a bonus for my qualification,...I'll definitely finish it and get my degree done,but after that, i'll expand my wings into a different area,.."

I just hope that my bark is much worse then my bite,....

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Bujang Trang tang tang,.......

2008-10-23T20:45:00.003+08:00

Feeling so random all of a sudden,.......

just wanna say,........

The politic is getting too child's play,...the intention was fairly good,...but the means and ways are so ngok ngek,....bongek! bongok! heheheh,...It's taunting!!

I'm being snippy,...why?

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oh Dang!!

2008-10-19T01:33:00.002+08:00

I'm just too lazy,...I don't feel like i want to commit myself with blogging for awhile,...i have a stack of things which need to be taken care of,...ahhhh,...tinggal 2 week or less,...damn it,...takut eh,...

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Salamat Pok!!!!

2008-10-13T02:43:00.006+08:00

10 more visitor, then my blog is good to go,..hehehe...and oh, thanks to you!!

On daily average, my blog is being viewed about 26 times per day,..which i can conclude that you people finally noticed me!!! yay!! and you have a very strong tendency to know something about me!!! hahahahaha......which is flattering..hehe...according to my site meter, this week alone, i received around 97 visits from you (and including me too,hehe). So thanx guys for sharing some moment with me...I hope my blog will gradually increases it's number banyak2,..hehe...

Anyhoo, i would like to make a birthday wish to two of my dearly friends

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY TO

SUHAIDA BT SENEN
&
ALBIN LEMUEL KUSHAN

Side by side or miles apart
True friends are always close to your heart
Whether you're turning five or fifty-three
You know that I'm a true friend because you're here beside me
I'm here, right now, on your special day
So lets give a cheer for you, hip, hip, hooray!

How touchy,..i know! hehehe,....So i better get my sorry ass warmed on my seat as i have a report to be submitted tomorrow,...ulser makin bnyk, jerawat makin bnyk,..adoh adoh,...the after math once i get all hyped out doing all the assignments,which is not something that i enjoy doing...i usually get this such symptoms if given a work under extreme pressured,..huhu,..bnyk keja sik siap!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........tension aku!

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Win urself a free handbag!

2008-10-10T21:55:00.005+08:00

To all the ladies, i know this posting sounded very tempting, but believe or not u could actually win urself a free handbag!!,..Maybe it's too good to be true but u haf nothing to lose...Just give it a try,..i did, despite the fact that i won't be using it anyway, kot leh kasi kat mak ker, kasi kat girlpren ker, bday present kat mmber ker,..hehehe....just click here. Beside, i never win anything.dapat handbag pun jadi la...hahaha... Selamat mencuba!

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Aja Aja !! Gambatte Gambatte

2008-10-10T02:30:00.007+08:00

The mock Viva presentation was a disastrous,...it was beyond that,..it was one level above disaster,...and I'm glad it's over,...Apparently TSA knows what we were up to during raya,..Well u caught us!! My badddd.......looking on how well "unprepared" we were during the presentation, I'm guessing he made a wise judgment on how enjoyable raya to us after all,..heheh...Plus with his cynical smiles that he gave while I was juggling my best to pleased the examiner's needs, just make me wish I was never born,...HUH!!

Anyway, best wishes to rest of the presenter! Take it from me people : Be prepare mentally and physically (Never ever sleep 1 hour before the presentation as it usually result in a serious post-brain damage where blankness usually taken place. Or In another serious case: ilang ingatan!!), be confident and most importantly smile becoz a smiles goes along way mate' (even if your slides turn out to be worst among the worst, the least you could do is smile, trust me, i shud know),...Adios Amigos!

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Update my Eid Mubarak!!

2008-10-07T23:55:00.004+08:00

I am back for updates,..and i am back for Shah Alam,..I am back for FYP,...And for the record, i am not happy about it,...at allllll..............

One week was too short for a total enjoyment in Kuching,..I really missed my family the most,...huhuhu,...It's just one of those weird utmost bizarre wild context imaginary thoughts where i just wish i could have some sort of extra terrestrial-mutation ability mcm cita HEROES, where i could just simply stopped time and move forward from one event to another,...Kan best if boleh fast forward my dreadful "To-look-forward" week yg akan bakal kunjung tiba,...

Ok enuff with sentimental-nonsensical talk...

Anyway, Raya was a blast to begin with,...Except for the part where i accidently tot about my project and it stopped my enjoyable time during "my friends-home-visiting-raya" thingy, thus resulting in butterflies inside my stomache and a cause of sudden nausea,..yeah,..It was great,..Kudos to TSA,..

Moving on,.Raya this year was more to friend, despite the fact that i shud be spending time with my family sepatutnya, tapi it safe to say, my time in kuching was equally shared between both party,..Ok la, talk a lot with my mum and dad and the siblings,...so it wasn't exactly more to a friend which i dont see where this conversation is taking point,..hehehe...Anyway, raya wishes mengantikan kad via sms banyak, visit umah kwn2 pun bnyk and this year dah bertuka geng ziarah menziarahi which is good for a start (i guess i need some changed with my circle of friends, and not just sticking with one group of friends jer, betol?)...Duit raya not a single cent since dah tua berbulu lebat tak ingat dunia (apa yg berbulu? pikir sendiri la),...emmmm, what else aa?? And Kuching changed a lot for a year,..much of a changed than before which is good by the way,...

And what i managed to achieved during my stay in Kuching adalah (in random order) :

1. Berbuka puasa di rumah and berbuke awal dr Semananjung! Boohoo,..Padan Muke!!
2. My mum's cooking which is the best in the entire universe.
3. Menjejak kaki at the talk of the town spot iaitu "The Spring".
4. Makan kat chilipeppers.
5. Berbuka puasa kat TJ!! satu kemestian if u are a true Kuching-ian.
6. Makan mee KOLOK!! Sigekkkkk......
7. G mekdi kat Paksen during raya,..also known as rumah terbuka mekdi!!
8. Lepak with my mum n dad at Kiosk waterfront!!
9. Ziarah menziarahi rumah kwn during raya which i have lost count brapa buah rumah yg telah di ziarahi,..
10. Pegi masja.
11. Mengurut kaki my mum and my dad which i am not ashamed to admit regardless of my umur yg sudah menceceh 23 tahun and still i am with all my most pleasure to do it for them.YES I DO!!
12. Pegi wisma seberkas.
13. Pegi Wisma satok.
14. Pegi the cut.
15. Makan hand made mushroom noodle blakang paksen.
16. Tgk cita Eagle Eye kat Riverside Cineplex.

My unachievable mission are:

1. No Laksa Sarawak.
2. No berbuka puasa kat hartz sbb again if u are a true Kuching-ian, berbuka puasa kat Harzt Sarawak Plaza adalah satu tradisi.
3. Tak sempat mkn Nasik Thai chilipeppers walaupun g Chilipeppers!
4. No my Kampong this year.
5. No my mum' s famous kuih batik!

So itu adalah serba sedikit summary Berpuasa-Beraya di Kuching ku terCHENTA!! Now i'm having a second thoughts whether i shud be working in KL or in Kuching after my degree (tu pun kalau grad on the actual time laa,insyallah)....takpe takpe takpe,..I just leave it to time to tell the rest of my story,..hehehe..until then, Adios Amigos!!

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TIIIDAAAKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-25T04:31:00.002+08:00

The whole class just found out that on the 9th of October, is going to be held yet another series of massacre,..And this time around, its going to be brutal, vile and vicious!!! No mercy and a point of no return!!!

I think i just lost my raya mood,..

With just a single e-mail, it ruined everything,...

Argh, damn it! I need to regained myself,..Just try to think positives,...

All is good,..all is good,..No worry,...semua nya ok!

OK, Who am i kidding!! I'm screwed!!

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Flight AK 5218,..here i come!!

2008-09-23T04:51:00.007+08:00

My blog has reached it's 1800 visitors today,..thanks to you by the way,...hehehe...

I was talking with Aris during sahur this morning about a social ladder or social group of people or social elite la konon (I don't usually used the word "elite" since the word gave out much of a superlative meaning which i reckon that non of these people actually reached that extent yet..but whatever) or social circle youth community in Kuching where basically, everybody knows everybody,..Seriously...They actually do...

Since we were so excited about us going home for raya, it is a perfect time to unrevealed and to reminisced all the good stuff there is to know about Kuching, especially "the in-crowd of Kuching"...All the bean is finally spilled...hehehe...from talking about one person's blog, the rest of the topics somehow appear to be linked with each other,..The boy's ex, the girls next door, the girl who farted during sex (and yes she did,..that's what i've been told and i surely would won't to be her!), the rich chicks, the spoil brat, the bastard, the girlfriend, the junkies, the loser, the bitch, and the list just continues...and basically, these people are linked somehow,..Kuching is too small for a big secret...Kalau korg berkentut sikit jer, satu Kuching boleh dgr tau! hahahaha......

That's the thing with Kuching la if org Semenanjung nk tahu, the minions of my provenance is too busy prying on other people's business or befriended with these certain group of people that eventually they left with no one Else's to berkawan with or bergossip with other then just themselves...and as a result of these non-coherent act of stupidity of these so called minions, maka terjadi la perkara2 seperti backstabbing and any such likes activities la...It's becoming a norm to them and somehow it became a custom to our culture.I mean, that's the scenario not only happened in Kuching la, it happened elsewhere, except for the big city where the population is too mass for anybody for that matter to poke their nose in...hehehe...

which is why i decided that right after i'm done with my degree, Godforbid aku nak stay kat Kuching since nosy Parker is everywhere,...hehehe...I don't exactly go with what i said sometimes, i mean in my own defense, there's always a pros and a cons kan?..memang benar la lebih molek pas abis stadi balik kmpg, keje kat kmpg, tolong mak bapak and tanam jaggung (Again with my figure of speech,..umah aku takder la ladang jaggung!), tapi i prefer to keep my life concealed and veil from people whom you grow up with la,..org2 yg kiter kenal la,..I like it better when after you've done with some stage of your life, you starting another stage with a new fresh start,..meeting different group of people and busy taking care of your own business instead of others...Right? I'm not exactly that "noble" la becoz i too commit such unrightful act terhadap kwn2,hehehe....tapi all i'm saying is that i like to get the jitters before the pitch...whichever that means,..hahaha...

I'm getting a bit out of track from the prior topic...hehe...

Then again, what do i know,...

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Balik kampongggg..ooooo...balik kampongg....

2008-09-22T04:46:00.011+08:00

YAYYY SIK SABA NK BALIK KAMPONGGGGG..........

Touch-down is approximately 5 days or more or less from now,..and i am so very excited to the high roof!! hiheee...

Home just make me so glee all of a sudden...hahahaha.......

Despite with all the happiness and the eagerness that I'm taking pleasure with, those darn FYP never fail to burst my bubble...Ok Enuff...

Anyway,...

I surely gonna miss some faces walaupun balik raya only lasted for a week, tapi akan merindui ketiadaan Org-org ini:

Wani ku Chenta

Zimah ku Comel

Razman Ku Cinggg

My partner in crime, my peaches and cream, my alibi, my brother, my sister, my lover, my saviour, my secret keeper, my advisor, my enemy, my shoulder to cry(*just a figure of speech ok* never actually cried..yet...hehe) ,my frienemy(haha...), my teacher, my student, my math guru, my chef, my cake partner, my steven's allies, my shopping associates, my source of amusement, my tiru meniru accomplices, my YM partner, But most importantly they are...

my Friend!

I wouldn't trade them for anything,...In fact, i wouldn't trade my degree experience for anything.....Hehehe.....I have learned so mucho mucho mas from this 3 people..And the fact that they have changed me a lot as a person and i thanked them for that...hehehe.....So Wani zimah and razman, I know i haven't said or express much, but i always heart heart you guys...hehe....

So that's the end of another touching episode of my blog...hahahaha.....Adios AMigos....

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tontoni la destinasi budget season 2 episode 11!!!

2008-09-19T05:11:00.005+08:00

Yet another monotonous posting about how dreadful and depressing fyp have been disturbing my life, in which i deem is about to make my insanity go somewhere to deepest realm of madness...

I'll spared you the godforsaken detail of my post...thank you very much!

And here i am skeptically thinking how i can write a post in a blog at 5 in the morning, instead of updating my project report which is due by next week,...

Bijak bestari tak aku?? ****Not****

Pastu komplen keja tak siap kan......salah sapa? salah saya la! hahaha

p/s: You may noticed that my blog may not be as fancy or as novel or as "picturie" (If you know what i mean) or "English wise" (walaupun english aku is not exactly that bijak bestari) as any other blog(s) that you usually read,..tapi janji ada org baca suda...kan? heheh...trimas...

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1 down,..9 more to go...

2008-09-18T02:29:00.009+08:00

Just as i tot luck has bailed it's magic on me,..suddenly the system that i was working on, berjaya!

that's what i tot,................for now, at least,.......

I just wonder why i seem to have loss a lot of appetite lately....

Not because of fasting,....

Maybe It's because i think too much about the project that somehow it affect my diet...
I keep on having these same dream about the project quite a few a times oready,..make that two days in a row,..The dreams keep on mentioning the word Java, Php, C++ and anything whatnot....it's absurd but it's true mind you,...Perhaps it's just my nonsensical state of mind telling me that i worried too much or it's supposedly to be a sign that I'm not gonna make it tru this semester,..i don't know,..it's just a tot,..I'm not exactly a dream interpreter but it's just my wild hunch telling me that this semester is not gonna end well,...hurmmm...

As much as i wanna be back home, enjoying my raya just like the year before, there's plenty of things that i need to settle before i put a full stop to my degree year,...I hope...

Maybe i shud stop thinking and let it all flow,...how's that sound??heheh...

p/s: thanx ziemah n wani for ur non stop support and razman for ur obnoxious pep talk,..haha..

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Aku yg semakin putus harapan........

2008-09-16T03:08:00.006+08:00

You know what,..

I'm beginning to really-really despise myself for not being able to do whatever necessary things that needs to be accomplished in this minimal time frame...arghhhhhhh........

Useless......

Tension nyawa kuuu,.........

I need some light to guide me tru this bitter and dark alley...away from all these confusion that i am going tru,...my judgment to foresee the true path is blinded by all these mess, confusion, perplexity, by all the problems,..Geezz....Tolong aku!!

I know i can do it,...I know me well that i won't give just yet,..not until my last breath i won't...

Not now!!

p/s: Anyhoo, thnx ziemah,razman n wani...kamu baik sama saya,.. =)

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+Food+me+happy+kejap+

2008-09-15T04:25:00.002+08:00

I don't know about you or i don't know if you noticed la, but somehow food have the ability to turned depressing mood into something so contented,...kan?? perasan x? if u feel so down ke, tapi bile pas makan jer, rase cam happy,...heheh....

I didn't realize it before until mock mentioned it to me after having sahur together,...Betol la,..i was so bothered about my FYP (now that i mentioned it again...mula la risau balik!hehe) to the extent of thinking on what could be the worst case scenario for me in another next two week. But little did i realized while i was having my food down to my throat, i didn't even think a single thing about FYP,..Or maybe Nasik itu di campur bersama ubat anti depression...hahaha...No wonder most girl would go for an extreme food therapy to endure the pain of breaking up,..i mean, that explains a lot!! Maybe we just think less while we eating becoz the food is just to scrumptious,...hahaha...

The power of food!!

Anyway, let's get back to work,..I'm done with happy,..isk isk.. :(

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Coding macam Si@LLLLLLLL..........i hate me now!!

2008-09-15T00:49:00.002+08:00

No matter how hard i try to grasp in all the codes in my brain to stay push with others,..It's effortless,..sik gunaaaaaaaa,......I still don't see how this codes actually works,..whilst other senang2 jer bwat coding,..i could only pry on their project while mine still stuck at zero square,..damn it!!!!!

I'm going tru some serious emotional break down,.....huhuhu,...

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